Partial solar eclipse in Capricorn

 
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When I was younger I used to love to be in plays. I loved the excitement of waiting in the wings before the show started. I loved listening to the buzz of the arriving audience. One of the crew members would give us updates. “I saw your Mom and Dad!” “It’s packed!” “We had to add extra chairs.” So much of the overall production was out of our hands. Would the props work? The lighting and sound? Would my partner remember the dance sequence? Even after months of practice I was never sure I was ready. Would my voice crack? Would I forget a line? Would I fall? When the curtains opened it was always an act of bravery and trust for us to perform, because we really didn’t know how we would do or how the audience would receive us. We just tried our best.

I like the symbolism of curtains closing and opening for an eclipse, especially tied in with the new moon symbolism of beginning in darkness. If the sun in astrology represents us, today’s partial solar eclipse blocks our ability to see ourselves fully. So what might we be missing about our own potential right now? What part of us is trying to get our attention, that might be different from the self we’re used to? It’s terrifying to have most of our ego stripped away. But what does that make space for? What was always waiting in darkness or is ready to be seen now?

Saturn and Pluto are conjunct this solar eclipse in Capricorn, bringing up issues of age, excellence, achievement, and solitude, but also control. How much control feels safe for us? How do we over- or under- control? What have we steadily planned for, worked for, built? What’s important to us? And when the unexpected happens, when our hearts are broken in disappointment, what steadies us? What really matters and keeps us going?

I’m carrying the excitement of a beginning with me this new moon/solar eclipse but also the seriousness of Capricorn/Pluto/Saturn, because in some area of our lives the stakes are high. We might be overwhelmed or defeated or terrified. But all of our effort and all of our experience counts in ways we might not understand yet. And when we show up something powerful and unseen swells with love and pride, and marvels. And I hope we do, too.

Moon opposite Pluto and the power of projection

Last night I had a dream I was about to play Monica Seles in a tournament match.

In the dream I didn’t have any special abilities. I knew it was ridiculous to go up against Monica Seles. I probably haven’t played tennis since fifth grade. Still I wanted to help her, because she needed this match for her standings. I knew she and I shared a birthday, so I thought, “I guess by playing I can help a fellow Sadge move ahead.” 

I didn’t have much time, so I prepared for the match by buying the right clothes. It might have been more useful to work on my serve or to stretch. I knew she would destroy me on the court. But I at least wanted to look the part. 

Accommodating, helping, sharing. Appearances, the question of an equal match. My dream was filled with Libran themes.

I woke up before I got to the stadium.

Today the moon enters the last quarter phase. Steven Forrest refers to "cathartic theater and the inner journey of the solitary artist" of this phase. In my dream I was about to face a powerful opponent who was sure to win. But she also has my birthday. On some level I was facing myself. 

Jumping in when it's not really appropriate or before I'm really ready to; over- or underestimating myself; deferring so someone else can win. I do these things sometimes, but do I still have to or want to? How often do habit or duty play a role in my decision-making? And what does it really matter what I look like??? 

Throughout this Virgo new moon cycle, the details and tasks that come up and the ways we're recruited to help or serve reveal to us the unfolding self that fits right now. It's a process of adjustment. It takes discernment. We get messages telling us how we’re doing, and we sift through them the best that we can. We weigh them with what we notice, and what feels safe and right for us, too. 

Who have been the major players in your life recently? What have been the major themes? Are there relationship or behavior patterns you've recognized? What have your dreams or intuition been telling you?

If a powerful image or interaction also gets your attention or elicits a strong emotional reaction, it might help to explore it from different angles or talk it through with someone you trust. It could have a helpful message that takes some time and attention to unpack.

Today's Cancer moon represents secure bonds and deep emotional safety needs. Show up for people how you can and when you're ready, but if you're someone who always thinks about other people, maybe give yourself some kindness, care, and love today, too.

Pluto stations direct during a Gemini moon: The truth and an open mind

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Pluto stations direct today, seeming to reverse directions from backward to forward.

Pluto is named after the Roman god of the underworld and it’s associated with the underground, the deep and powerful. Where we have Pluto in our charts we bring a probing quality, or we need to. The surface is not enough.

Pluto has been transiting the sign of Capricorn since 2008, combining the symbolism of authority and the gold standard with the shadow and the ultimate truth. This is reflected in our society, as long-honored traditions and institutions that have abused their power and privilege are facing a very public reckoning. And this is reflected in some area of our personal lives, where we’re confronted with a wound, buried truth or shadow and we’re invited to reclaim what was lost or taken.

Is Pluto a planet or a dwarf planet? Is what’s happening in our lives a mountain or a molehill? Pluto brings up questions and we do or don’t answer them. But they’re there. They don’t go away.

We know that Pluto moves more slowly than any of the other planets, with a cycle of 248 years. We know it’s not visible to the naked eye. NASA calls Pluto mysterious and complex, with a heart-shaped glacier the size of Texas and Oklahoma; Pluto actually has red snow.

A heart-shaped glacier and red snow. Just think of those images for a moment. What do they conjure up for you?

There’s a blackout experiment on social media now. It’s a statement against abuse; it’s meant to reflect solidarity and help us imagine a world without women. To those who are participating, it means something, whether somber or uplifting, which some may be willing to shout and some may never feel safe enough to share.

Today I’m reminded of Jane Elliott’s “Blue-eyes-Brown-eyes” experiment, in which the 3rd-grade teacher separated her students by eye color and gave the blue-eyed children extra privileges. By the end of the day the blue-eyed children had become more arrogant and bossy and scored higher on tests than they ever did before; the brown-eyed children became more timid and isolated and their test performance suffered.

Many of us can relate to the brown-eyed children, whether because of our race, gender, or some other part of us that is outside of traditional privilege. It’s confounding. It hurts deeply. And yet it can be so tempting to accept the other role if we’re invited to, like when Elliott reversed the exercise.

I’m not likening Elliott’s experiment to anything right now. I’m not drawing any conclusions. I’m just pondering it because it popped in my head again, and so I’m trying to re-consider and learn from it. I’m seeing how my own behavior measures up.

Today’s Gemini moon reflects the healing power of images and communication. So I’m sharing this picture to validate and support the women of integrity and conviction who sent me the invitation. I didn’t create the social media blackout, so I really don’t have the authority, but I also don’t believe in exclusion. So if you don’t identify as a woman but feel moved to participate, I invite you to , also.

No one disputes the fact that Neptune is a planet, and so what it represents may have the last word: Compassion, vastness, unity, direct connection to the divine without boundaries or divisions.  But we wade through murky waters to get back there. We have personal and shared experiences of hell and of redemption. And they’re real and meaningful, even if not seen or acknowledged.

Recovery is a long and slow process. Stopping to consider Plutonian territory today — what’s mysterious or complex, the shameful or the shadow, especially as it has shown up in our past relationships — might enable us to move forward in some way today. But if we regularly plumb the depths or have recently been through acute pain and darkness, we may need to give ourselves credit; we might need a little break.

Wherever we happen to be, today's Pluto station and Gemini moon remind us to be patient and flexible with ourselves and with each other as we express what we're ready to, as we discern our right speed and direction.

Fight, freedom, and helping: Mars square Uranus under a Virgo sun

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“Black Bird” by Benny Andrews

Today Mars in Aquarius squares Uranus in Taurus. This is a closing square that relates to their conjunction or joining in Aries in late February 2017.

Mars square Uranus is a stressful energy. I’m gonna be real with you. This one stumped me, because I always read the sky as a message from a God who loves us. Why would we ever need more stress???

Virgo season is about doing the best we can in the human condition. Discriminating how we can do better and be useful to each other here on earth. Today’s moon/Pluto conjunction symbolizes that it’s time for some deeper reflection.

Think about your effort and progress over the last year and a half. Is there any resource or relationship you have now that you didn’t have or realize then? Think about all the scary things you’ve faced and survived. How has a group joined or supported you?

Today try to feel any love that has helped settle you and notice any progress in your personal fight. Unfortunately, it’s not over. But in some ways that’s actually a good thing, because what we’ve learned can now help others.

In the end, the fight was never really about just us.

The moon in Capricorn: Lucy on Responsibility

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“Responsibility is the ability to respond.”
Lucille Ball

Wedged between Saturn and Pluto, the Capricorn moon today might feel heavy. We could be more aware of limitations and loss, age and death, sadness and shadow.

Capricorn, Saturn, and Pluto all bring up issues of control.

And who knows what we can control, really? I can control what I do – to some extent, based on the options I have as someone who is fillintheblank. I can control what I say always, whether or not I actually do. But I can’t control the effects of my actions. I can’t control how people will hear or take my words. To some extent, that’s pretty depressing. It can make me want to give up.

So today Lucy’s words help me. Just respond. Maybe breathe before you do, maybe pray before you do, but show up somehow today and respond. Not the way you always have, not based on anyone’s expectations, but from the steady rhythm and knowing wisdom of your heart.

Creating and Sharing Under the Leo moon

The moon is in the fiery, creative sign of Leo now, and I've been working on next Saturday's webinar: Enlightened Parenting Through Astrology: Five Times Astrology Made me a Better Mom.

I've never given a webinar. I've never taught a class. My parents are teachers and I'm astonished and awed by the impact they've had on so many people over decades. I think seeing the wisdom, charisma and passion they embodied kept me away from teaching. I didn't know if I could pull it off. I didn't want to try.

My siblings are performers. Their presence is captivating. They're funny. They're deep. They're transformative. I love supporting them. But I'm terrified to join them. I work an office job every day in a room by myself, hidden by a humongous computer screen, usually eating.

And yet I was asked by my dear, respected friend Tony Howard to give a class in the summit he created. And I said Yes, because I trust Tony's judgment in other people and I know Tony's high standards. And this topic is so dear to my heart. If I've put the hours and intention into anything in my life it's been into creating a family and learning and practicing astrology. But still, I'm scared.

The New Moon in Cancer on July 12th has symbolically brought an opportunity to rebirth nurturing, creative, loving energies in us. But Pluto in Capricorn is opposite the sun and moon in that new moon chart. Fear, dread, shame and limits can overpower and stop us before we start.

But what if we look at it differently? What if we see the times in our lives when the shy, protective, emotional shell of Cancer has been capable of stopping us before we even start? That's kind of where I was when Tony first approached me: No thank you, I'll watch the webinar from the comfort of home and someone else can present. In that case Pluto in Capricorn can be the helper -- drawing out what we're actually capable of. Plumbing the depths of who we've worked to become; letting that empower and transform us and those we encounter.

This new moon/Pluto action happens for me in the 4th and 10th house axis of home and family and career and the broader world. I can choose to stay home and just practice these techniques by myself and with my child, with my family and friends and local clients, Thank you very much. But a powerful friend is giving me this opportunity to share the information with a broader audience. And as I prepare it I know the techniques can help people nurture and support their children, or their clients who are parents. I just have to overcome my shyness and fear to do it.

Where does this new moon fall in your birth chart? Consider the Cancer solar and lunar themes positively and negatively. Let that inform your intentions for starts and renewals. And try to make a friend of Pluto. There's power inside and outside of you, an opportunity for creating and revealing something profound to yourself and others that you can do only when you realize you're already safe, loved and whole, and only when you can shed some of your ego and over-sensitivity. I hate saying that. Sensitive people bless and heal the world. So I hope you can see what I mean: We can get so lost in being sensitive that it cripples us or holds us from action, and that's where the Capricorn energy can help us. Leave something in this world that is born out of your sensitivity. Leave something tangible. Today's Leo moon can help inspire you.

It's been a pleasure to create this webinar. Next Saturday, I'll be drawing on my experience of motherhood, inspired by my parents' ability to teach and my siblings' ability to take the stage. I hope you'll join me. It's free, and from what I know of the other astrologers who are presenting, I'll be in outstanding company. Thank you, Tony, for the nudging at least one of us needed to bring this to light.

 

 

 

 

Being your own boss: The moon in Capricorn

Today the moon is in Capricorn, the sign of self-discipline, integrity, and mastery. Today is a chance to integrate what we’ve been working hard at with how we truly feel.

Check in with yourself. Give yourself a progress report. What are your greatest accomplishments? Has anything been exhausting you lately? Are you sticking with it because it’s important to you or because of a “should” you’ve outgrown?

Sometimes we have no control. Life is simply sad or hard, and we react humanly rather than stoically. We get worn down. We lose hope. We’re stopped in our tracks. But sometimes we stop ourselves in our tracks with fear or inertia. We lose imagination. We forget to expand.

Today the moon joins with Pluto, symbolically bringing what’s unconscious to our emotional attention. Spend some time with it, even if it’s uncomfortable. There’s something we need to see, transform, or release in order to move forward from a place of true authority and power.

Move intentionally through the day, so that you’re not overly harsh with yourself or others if you have a setback. If you experience that energy from others, know that there’s a lot going on beneath the surface. Don’t internalize crap that doesn’t belong to you. Be aware of any moments you need to draw boundaries for your own mental health and stability.

As you go through your day, work with the supporting energy of Jupiter to understand what comes up and reframe it in wisdom and hope. Hard work and focus can lead to freedom, success, and joy. But first, define what’s worth the time and effort to you.  

(Moon conjunct Pluto 2:21 p.m. EST. Moon sextile Jupiter in Scorpio 6:41 p.m.)