This sculpture by Kees Verkade, “Tightrope Walker” was part of my Aries full moon meditation today.
This morning I played James Taylor’s “Something in the Way She Moves” and imagined which part of my chart “she” might be.
She has the power to go where no one else can find me
Yes, and to silently remind me
Of the happiness and good times that I know
For me, my Jupiter in Taurus came to mind: The part of my chart that helps me be present and still.
Is there a part of your chart that strikes you as comforting? If you don’t know your chart, is there a quality you have that fills you with a sense of peace?
If this song doesn’t speak to you right now, is there another song that can remind you of a beautiful piece of you?
Today there’s a grand trine in the sky between the sun in Virgo, Saturn in Capricorn, and Uranus in Taurus. A grand trine is a supportive, harmonious aspect. In a chart it looks like a triangle. Because the trine is in earth, we can also look at it as especially stabilizing or enduring.
Saturn and Uranus joined together three times in 1988, and that can be considered the beginning of a Saturn/Uranus cycle: The relationship between our productive, mature, and disciplined self and our innovative, rebellious, and free self. Think of the most buttoned-up person you know and the most zany, and imagine inviting them to dinner – just the three of you. In 1988 instead of for dinner, symbolically those two energies came together inside us, like siblings forced to sit together after an argument. Whether we were born with stronger Saturn energies in our chart or stronger Uranian, that year they became equals and had to learn to work together.
So how’s that been going for you?
It’s easier for me to make friends with Saturn. I have long-lasting relationships. I tend to show up when I’m needed. I can finish what I start. Uranus is harder for me. I do it, but bracingly. Every time I write about astrology – which is Uranian – I’m afraid of being shunned. I start to imagine someone rolling her eyes or unfriending me. I don’t want to be too weird or too forceful.
1988 for me was the end of grammar school and the beginning of middle school: The excitement of moving forward, the fear of not fitting in. Missing close friends who wouldn’t be joining me. It all felt very dramatic. We’d write each other over-the-top letters proclaiming our devotion and sadness. But it was also fun: My middle school could be out of control. I remember kids standing on tables, dancing. It reminded me of scenes from Fame. More unsettling were the epic fights after school. I was a bus kid, so I never stayed to see them, but I saw and heard the lead-ups and recaps: Time-tested rituals of taking off earrings or pulling back hair; the next-day black eye or fat lip. The adults, for the most part, were ineffectual. I couldn’t believe this was possible for a school. Saturn, meet Uranus.
Do you remember what was happening for you?
This year Lyndon starts middle school, and I’m hoping that in the spirit of today’s grand trine, Saturn and Uranus come together in a safer, more supportive, less shocking way for him. My middle school would have blown his mind. Thirty years later, it still blows mine.
But did I really learn the lesson? In many ways I’m still the Saturn kid watching someone else dance or someone else fight.
How about you? Are you still sitting closer to Saturn or Uranus? What goes through your mind when they speak?
Today I’ll bring Uranus more into the balance: Taking an action for social change and one for personal freedom. In honor of my middle school friends, I’ll try to have a little more moxie, starting with yet another Astrology post.
You may feel the need to hear Saturn instead: To structure, plan or complete something.
Wherever you are I hope you can see both Saturn and Uranus as friends, with you and with each other.
The sun will change signs from Leo to Virgo tonight just after midnight EDT. The personal drive shifts from who am I to what can I do?
Hopefully we’ve gotten a healthy glimpse of our own worthiness. Hopefully we’ve followed the instinct or intentionally opted to create, play, take up some space, and love. One day this month while Lyndon was away, Lang and I went to the beach instead of the supermarket, and that was a middle-aged Leo victory for us. We chose fun. Another night we double-dated with my parents. My Mom stage-whispered inappropriate comments into my ear to make me laugh like she used to by dancing in public. Those Leo moments were perfect. I wanted to freeze them in time.
Others were harder, as I struggled to know who I was and what I wanted to say. I felt an inner drive for impact – am I making the most of my talents, my life or this summer? I could sense more power but I didn’t always know how to direct it. Is it enough to just sit here and notice how great Lang is – or my mail deliverer, or that celebrity, or the lady who talked to me on the F train last night – and how great I am, too?
I think it can be. I think some of Leo homework is to let that sink in: a compliment, joy – being impressed or satisfied: The lion, confident and at rest. But after a long day at the beach we can get a little tired of the sun.
So on this last Leo day, fill up your cup somehow. Relish a moment or another being. Take stock of what’s great about you.
Tomorrow, even if you've needed or loved this Leo time of being, start to see what you're ready to do.
Today the moon makes a supportive, harmonious aspect to the sun. And I’m thinking of it as a chance for our emotional reactions to support and harmonize with our true selves.
Emotions are sticky and, at least in the symbolism of astrology, they're tied with needs. We all have different comfort levels with showing our neediness. With a natal Aries, 1st-house moon, emotions come quickly to me. I can’t give calm or rational voice to them right away, though. I envy that quality in sophisticated Libra moons. I’m more of a cavewoman. I get a hot feeling – my cheeks flush or my heart races – and I feel compelled to act. If I’m angry, you’ll immediately see it on my face. But even if I’m happy I’m likely to do something slightly aggressive like interrupt you, grab you, or move in way too closely. My eyes bulge and my smile tries to reach my ears. Sometimes I smile so forcefully that I displace my own jaw. I can be a little much.
People who love me, I hope, find this endearing. When I’m angry, they’re a little scared, but they cautiously hang in there like hostage negotiators, trying to help me voice my demands. When you have an Aries moon, needs do become immediate, internal demands. I’ve been helped by people who can show me a little patience while I work out what my heart is really demanding of me. Who can accept a little discomfort with me until my Sagittarius sun catches up to take a larger, more philosophical view. But I’ve also been shamed by people who didn’t accept this Aries energy in me. It made them uncomfortable. Sometimes for good reason – because I wasn’t considerate or skillful in what I expressed. But sometimes they were also just stuck in what was comfortable for them. Not everyone likes a confrontation or really exaggerated facial expressions.
The moon is connected with memories, and today’s Sagittarius moon can help you connect the dots between your childhood needs, environment, and emotions and your current emotional style. What is your emotional style? How did your caregivers express their feelings during crucial stages of your life? How did they respond to yours? How do the people in your day-to-day life respond to your emotions if and when you show them? What messaging around having and showing emotions have you absorbed from society regarding gender, race, religion, etc.? Does your response to and expression of your feelings fit who you now are?
If you know your natal chart, what are the qualities of your moon and how do they blend with the qualities of your sun? But even if you don’t, how do your feelings help or conflict with your ability to stay centered and shine?
The Leo sun and the Sagittarius moon today give us a unique opportunity to see and share more of our authentic selves, but the moon is private, protective, and vulnerable: Healthy emotional expression, like the phases of the moon, evolves over time and in stages. But if you’re ready and interested, slow yourself down to feel some of your own answers to these questions. We can be soothed and strengthened today if we look a little deeper at where we've been emotionally and personally and where we'd like to go.
"A total lunar eclipse occurs when the moon and the sun are on exact opposite sides of Earth. Although the moon is in Earth's shadow, some sunlight reaches the moon. The sunlight passes through Earth's atmosphere, which causes Earth’s atmosphere to filter out most of the blue light. This makes the moon appear red to people on Earth." https://www.nasa.gov/audience/forstudents/5-8/features/nasa-knows/what-is-an-eclipse-58
Today the earth will shade the full Aquarian moon for several hours, and these are some of the questions I've been pondering:
Thinking of eclipses in terms of entrances or exits, what is it I might want in my life that I've never had, or what might I be ready to end ?
We all filter the light we receive from others. How does my particular filter work? Does it protect me enough from what might overpower me? Does it protect me too much from the light and positive input of others? How comfortable am I with attention -- both giving and receiving?
Has earth energy -- patience, stability, practicality, rootedness ever bolstered me against the extremes of fire and air -- impatience and worry ? In what's truly important to me, do I have both roots and flowers? Has any attachment to earth qualities kept me back from really owning and expressing my passion and individuality, or stopped me from taking a risk? What are my usual responses to conflict or crisis?
Every full moon is a chance to become aware of the projections in our lives -- to see and heal our relationship to Other, to pull back some of the projection and see ourselves in everything. This lunar eclipse amplifies the opportunity. Who really impresses me? Who really stands out to me as a genius or a star? I'm closer to them than I think. That also goes for the other side: The people who rub me the wrong way or offend me. We're made of the same stuff, too. How can releasing some of those projections bring me closer to love, power, and right action? Where do I need defenses, and where do I just need boundaries? And when and with whom can I just be comfy and fluid, creative, and whole?
Happy Full Moon and Eclipse. Happy ruminations and happy revelations.
Today the moon is in Capricorn, the sign of self-discipline, integrity, and mastery. Today is a chance to integrate what we’ve been working hard at with how we truly feel.
Check in with yourself. Give yourself a progress report. What are your greatest accomplishments? Has anything been exhausting you lately? Are you sticking with it because it’s important to you or because of a “should” you’ve outgrown?
Sometimes we have no control. Life is simply sad or hard, and we react humanly rather than stoically. We get worn down. We lose hope. We’re stopped in our tracks. But sometimes we stop ourselves in our tracks with fear or inertia. We lose imagination. We forget to expand.
Today the moon joins with Pluto, symbolically bringing what’s unconscious to our emotional attention. Spend some time with it, even if it’s uncomfortable. There’s something we need to see, transform, or release in order to move forward from a place of true authority and power.
Move intentionally through the day, so that you’re not overly harsh with yourself or others if you have a setback. If you experience that energy from others, know that there’s a lot going on beneath the surface. Don’t internalize crap that doesn’t belong to you. Be aware of any moments you need to draw boundaries for your own mental health and stability.
As you go through your day, work with the supporting energy of Jupiter to understand what comes up and reframe it in wisdom and hope. Hard work and focus can lead to freedom, success, and joy. But first, define what’s worth the time and effort to you.
(Moon conjunct Pluto 2:21 p.m. EST. Moon sextile Jupiter in Scorpio 6:41 p.m.)