Scorpio Moon and the storm

Photo by Ansel Adams

Photo by Ansel Adams

Yesterday I didn’t know what to say about both Venus and the moon in Scorpio opposing Uranus in Taurus. I didn’t want to sound alarmist. There can always be a range of expressions. But many of us were confronted by heavy feelings in the face of something unpredictable or disturbing.

Scorpio brings up issues of control, fear, passion, paranoia. It intensifies feelings in general, even happy ones. But Scorpio energy opposing Uranus in Taurus can be especially intense, raw, shocking and real as we try to find our actual footing and an internal sense of control at the same time, triggered by a complicated relationship or circumstance.  

For me the symbolism played out extremely literally: I participated in a mandatory security training at my school so I’d know what to do if confronted by an active shooter. We huddled under desks while our coworker came at us with a Nerf gun to illustrate how ineffectual the old advice of simply hiding was. It left us like sitting ducks. We learned how to barricade a door and how to counter as a very last resort. The best option, if available – if you know there is enough distance between you and the shooter – is to get away.  

We live in a world where I feel compelled to teach my son this information to keep him safe. And yet a neighbor I just met has dutifully picked Lyndon up from school every day along with her own daughter because I’m not able to. There is unexpected goodness, too.  

This week some of us have been processing deep feelings around trauma we’ve lived through. Others are facing an actual storm.

Today while the Scorpio moon trines Neptune and then Mercury opposes it, strategy and planning mix with the unknown, the uncharted, the fog. And yet in exactly that space we can find inspiration and a good-enough way through.

Reflection before the Aries sun

Mars entered Capricorn yesterday. With the moon in Aries until 9:06 p.m. EDT today, seven planetary bodies are now in cardinal signs, which have the energy of beginning. But the sun, representing a changing, deepening self, is still in the mutable water sign Pisces until tomorrow at around noon. So how can we be flexible until then? How can intuition, imagination, forgiveness, and love guide us and help us sense what’s important to give effort and energy to?

Pisces is hard on the ego. Pisces can be cloudy, murky. Lyndon has natal Mercury in Pisces and at Parent-Teacher conferences last week his teacher said, “I just don’t want next year’s teacher to wonder, ‘What is going on in Lyndon’s head?’” While the sun has been in Pisces I’ve been wondering what’s been going on in my head, too. I haven’t been sure what’s so important, where I fit in, or what I should do. I’ve been wanting to sleep more, have a drink, or watch TV. It’s an uncomfortable space for me. I’d rather be sure of myself and moving forward.

Tomorrow is the vernal equinox and in the Northern Hemisphere day will start to be longer than night. The Aries sun will represent action and courage for all of us. For me, a fire sign with an Aries Ascendant, that’s a bit of a relief. Finally. Let’s get going again. Please get me off my couch.

But I’ve rushed into the wrong things before. I’ve asserted myself too harshly or defended myself too strongly or gone forward too naively and been pulled back. So can the experience of this past month of Pisces help me go forward in confidence but not aggression, with courage but not fear? Can it help me remember kindness, imagination, and space?

I think so. I hope so. But if I happen to forget and seem a little stressed, please remind me that there’s nothing wrong with spending a few quiet moments on the couch.

Peace and power: The Pisces sun and Scorpio moon

Yesterday the sun joined Neptune and I hope in some way the fog lifted for you. I hope you have a broader sense of who you are.

Yesterday Mercury also joined Venus and I hope you got a glimpse of the love and beauty you’re here to give. I hope you could make peace with something that had been overwhelming you.

If you didn’t, or you haven’t, try today.

Today Mercury and Venus spend a final day in Pisces until next year. If your mind has taken on a script or your heart has let in a relationship that doesn’t reflect hope, sweetness, and the best of who you are, today you can release it. If you’re not ready or able to release it, try to see it with more freedom and space. It doesn’t define you. Your story is so much bigger.

The moon will enter Scorpio this morning, the sign of fixed water. Some of the emotional habits we’ve built up protect and strengthen us, and some just keep us stuck. Try to keep some flexibility today in your heart and mind so that emotions don’t overtake you, but instead help carry you through in peace and in power.

(Moon enters Scorpio 8:22 a.m. EST. Moon sextile Saturn 10:31 p.m.)

The moon in Pisces: Let it be

Today the moon is in the sign of mutable water, Pisces, and thank goodness.

I experienced the Aquarius new moon solar eclipse energy as the energy of the unsettling and awkward: What’s my place, how do I fit in, how do I get along, what’s worth saying. I’ve gotten it wrong this week just as I’ve gotten it wrong other times in my life. I texted my sister yesterday, “It’s so hard to live in society.” On the one hand Aquarius symbolizes the drive to individuate, and on the other hand, it symbolizes the drive to belong.

In high school I could never commit to a lunch table. I floated around each day; a few times a month I ate my lunch alone on the stairs or with the janitor. I told myself it was because I didn’t believe in labels or cliques, which was true, but I also didn’t want to be rejected. I didn’t want to hang around for the awkward day when the energy of the table was off.

When you’re just passing by, everyone’s happy to see you.

The recent eclipses have echoed that Aquarius/Leo dynamic: Group needs/heart needs; the intellectual or logical with the creative and the expressive. Sometimes when we share or show up we won’t be well-received. Is that a push to go where we’re celebrated or to step back from our hurt feelings and see a different side?  Can we use both our heads and our hearts to discern?

This work is exhausting. This work takes a toll. So today, do something to recover: Listen to your favorite song, reach out to a favorite friend, nap, pray. Today at some point, it will feel good to let it be.

(Moon sextile Saturn in Capricorn 9:57 a.m. EST. Moon conjunct Venus 11:35 a.m.)

Being your own boss: The moon in Capricorn

Today the moon is in Capricorn, the sign of self-discipline, integrity, and mastery. Today is a chance to integrate what we’ve been working hard at with how we truly feel.

Check in with yourself. Give yourself a progress report. What are your greatest accomplishments? Has anything been exhausting you lately? Are you sticking with it because it’s important to you or because of a “should” you’ve outgrown?

Sometimes we have no control. Life is simply sad or hard, and we react humanly rather than stoically. We get worn down. We lose hope. We’re stopped in our tracks. But sometimes we stop ourselves in our tracks with fear or inertia. We lose imagination. We forget to expand.

Today the moon joins with Pluto, symbolically bringing what’s unconscious to our emotional attention. Spend some time with it, even if it’s uncomfortable. There’s something we need to see, transform, or release in order to move forward from a place of true authority and power.

Move intentionally through the day, so that you’re not overly harsh with yourself or others if you have a setback. If you experience that energy from others, know that there’s a lot going on beneath the surface. Don’t internalize crap that doesn’t belong to you. Be aware of any moments you need to draw boundaries for your own mental health and stability.

As you go through your day, work with the supporting energy of Jupiter to understand what comes up and reframe it in wisdom and hope. Hard work and focus can lead to freedom, success, and joy. But first, define what’s worth the time and effort to you.  

(Moon conjunct Pluto 2:21 p.m. EST. Moon sextile Jupiter in Scorpio 6:41 p.m.)

 

Being where you are: The moon in Virgo

Today the moon is in Virgo, the sign of mutable earth.

I was thinking about nature interacting with its surroundings – a flower responding to water or to the sun, to conditions from harsh to ideal. My plants perking back up every time I think I’ve finally killed them.

And then I thought about us, and how hard it is to be a changing, living thing interacting with the outside world. What we meet each day can nourish or devastate us, and yet somehow the contract of living things is to face the unpredictable. How very incredible. How brave and astounding.

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When you realize you've been stuck: The Leo moon and the Aquarius sun

Today I’m thinking of the qualities of the Aquarius sun and the Leo moon: Fixed air and fixed fire.

I caught myself holding my breath yesterday. I was walking quickly to my job from several blocks away, where I had found parking. I was worried I’d be late. I decided to jog instead, clumsily, in knee-high boots, trying to avoid patches of ice. I took huge breaths as I did, partly because I’m out of shape, and partly because I made myself. Getting to work on time didn’t matter to me as much as remembering to breathe did. It felt so good to take deep breaths.

As the moon spends its final hours in Leo today, think about where you may have become fixed in air or in fire. Try not to judge yourself – just observe.

Is my breath caught inside me right now? How about my ideas or words?

Is passion stuck inside me? How about anger or love?

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