The moon as love

These past couple of days had some challenges. It’s not so simple to reconcile the moon’s Aquarius energy of social interaction and curiosity with the deeply-feeling, protective energy of the three Scorpio planets it’s squaring. Do we get out there or do we stay hidden?

I’m easily hurt and embarrassed. And I’m also part-extrovert. So I don’t really know how to do this dance.

The Libra sun symbolizes a balancing act, and Venus retrograde hints that maybe in the past it hasn’t always gone so smoothly. But the moon always symbolizes the great healer: Unconditional love that doesn’t leave us. The moon is tidally locked to the earth, always showing us the same face, brighter or darker, more or less visible, but always there.

I hope you feel connected to that love today.

About Bill Buckner: Mars enters Aquarius

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Mars enters the fixed air sign Aquarius at 8:55 p.m. EDT. Yesterday Venus entered the fixed water sign Scorpio.

Mars and Venus were in these signs in the fall of 1986, fall/winter of 1999, and the fall of 2001.

“So the winning run is at second base, with two out, three and two to Mookie Wilson. [A] little roller up along first... behind the bag! It gets through Buckner! Here comes Knight, and the Mets win it!”

- Announcer Vin Scully, NBC, Game 6 of the 1986 World Series

We were Mets fans. 1986 was a very happy year in our house. But I’ve always felt bad for Bill Buckner.

He liked to wear a glove that was a little floppy. That night the jerky momentum of his body as he ran for and stopped to catch the ball caused his glove to close. Famously, Mookie Wilson’s hit went right through Buckner’s legs and earned the game-winning run.

Positively, Mars in Aquarius can be the action of a team working together or an individual doing things in an unexpected, outside-the-box or genius way. Negatively, Mars in Aquarius can be connected to rejection for exactly the same reasons: Why couldn’t you catch the damn ball?

Yesterday was a new moon in Virgo. This symbolizes a new beginning in careful attention and meaningful work, but also in humility and introspection.

Mars will be in Aquarius until November 10th. We’ll all have some unexpected victories and losses. As we’re more attuned and attention-driven for the next month, let’s also be mindful of each other’s feelings. Venus in Scorpio can symbolize powerful intuition and regeneration when it comes to Venus-ruled areas like love, money, and art, but it can also symbolize control issues, power plays, and scapegoating.

I hope we all find ourselves in Mookie’s position, shocked by great achievements. But if we find ourselves or someone else in Buckner’s, reflection and analysis can help us find a better reaction in a dark moment.

Thirty years later the 1986 Red Sox team was honored at Fenway. This is Buckner, getting a smile from hitting coach Walt Hriniak and a hug from former teammate Wade Boggs. Even when we’re crushed or disappointed, we’re capable of this response, too.

Love and the Full Pisces Moon

When we’re struck by jealousy or shame, when we find ourselves overwhelmed or ping-ponging between emotions, something grounds, steadies, and comforts us.

What or who comes to mind for you?

During today’s full moon, take some time to behold them – actually or just in your mind, until you feel a lightening or a shift.

And then behold yourself, more gently, sweetly, patiently, forgivingly than you did before. There’s a plan for you. You’re loved.

The moon in Pisces: Let it be

Today the moon is in the sign of mutable water, Pisces, and thank goodness.

I experienced the Aquarius new moon solar eclipse energy as the energy of the unsettling and awkward: What’s my place, how do I fit in, how do I get along, what’s worth saying. I’ve gotten it wrong this week just as I’ve gotten it wrong other times in my life. I texted my sister yesterday, “It’s so hard to live in society.” On the one hand Aquarius symbolizes the drive to individuate, and on the other hand, it symbolizes the drive to belong.

In high school I could never commit to a lunch table. I floated around each day; a few times a month I ate my lunch alone on the stairs or with the janitor. I told myself it was because I didn’t believe in labels or cliques, which was true, but I also didn’t want to be rejected. I didn’t want to hang around for the awkward day when the energy of the table was off.

When you’re just passing by, everyone’s happy to see you.

The recent eclipses have echoed that Aquarius/Leo dynamic: Group needs/heart needs; the intellectual or logical with the creative and the expressive. Sometimes when we share or show up we won’t be well-received. Is that a push to go where we’re celebrated or to step back from our hurt feelings and see a different side?  Can we use both our heads and our hearts to discern?

This work is exhausting. This work takes a toll. So today, do something to recover: Listen to your favorite song, reach out to a favorite friend, nap, pray. Today at some point, it will feel good to let it be.

(Moon sextile Saturn in Capricorn 9:57 a.m. EST. Moon conjunct Venus 11:35 a.m.)