Partial solar eclipse in Capricorn

 
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When I was younger I used to love to be in plays. I loved the excitement of waiting in the wings before the show started. I loved listening to the buzz of the arriving audience. One of the crew members would give us updates. “I saw your Mom and Dad!” “It’s packed!” “We had to add extra chairs.” So much of the overall production was out of our hands. Would the props work? The lighting and sound? Would my partner remember the dance sequence? Even after months of practice I was never sure I was ready. Would my voice crack? Would I forget a line? Would I fall? When the curtains opened it was always an act of bravery and trust for us to perform, because we really didn’t know how we would do or how the audience would receive us. We just tried our best.

I like the symbolism of curtains closing and opening for an eclipse, especially tied in with the new moon symbolism of beginning in darkness. If the sun in astrology represents us, today’s partial solar eclipse blocks our ability to see ourselves fully. So what might we be missing about our own potential right now? What part of us is trying to get our attention, that might be different from the self we’re used to? It’s terrifying to have most of our ego stripped away. But what does that make space for? What was always waiting in darkness or is ready to be seen now?

Saturn and Pluto are conjunct this solar eclipse in Capricorn, bringing up issues of age, excellence, achievement, and solitude, but also control. How much control feels safe for us? How do we over- or under- control? What have we steadily planned for, worked for, built? What’s important to us? And when the unexpected happens, when our hearts are broken in disappointment, what steadies us? What really matters and keeps us going?

I’m carrying the excitement of a beginning with me this new moon/solar eclipse but also the seriousness of Capricorn/Pluto/Saturn, because in some area of our lives the stakes are high. We might be overwhelmed or defeated or terrified. But all of our effort and all of our experience counts in ways we might not understand yet. And when we show up something powerful and unseen swells with love and pride, and marvels. And I hope we do, too.

Pluto stations direct during a Gemini moon: The truth and an open mind

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Pluto stations direct today, seeming to reverse directions from backward to forward.

Pluto is named after the Roman god of the underworld and it’s associated with the underground, the deep and powerful. Where we have Pluto in our charts we bring a probing quality, or we need to. The surface is not enough.

Pluto has been transiting the sign of Capricorn since 2008, combining the symbolism of authority and the gold standard with the shadow and the ultimate truth. This is reflected in our society, as long-honored traditions and institutions that have abused their power and privilege are facing a very public reckoning. And this is reflected in some area of our personal lives, where we’re confronted with a wound, buried truth or shadow and we’re invited to reclaim what was lost or taken.

Is Pluto a planet or a dwarf planet? Is what’s happening in our lives a mountain or a molehill? Pluto brings up questions and we do or don’t answer them. But they’re there. They don’t go away.

We know that Pluto moves more slowly than any of the other planets, with a cycle of 248 years. We know it’s not visible to the naked eye. NASA calls Pluto mysterious and complex, with a heart-shaped glacier the size of Texas and Oklahoma; Pluto actually has red snow.

A heart-shaped glacier and red snow. Just think of those images for a moment. What do they conjure up for you?

There’s a blackout experiment on social media now. It’s a statement against abuse; it’s meant to reflect solidarity and help us imagine a world without women. To those who are participating, it means something, whether somber or uplifting, which some may be willing to shout and some may never feel safe enough to share.

Today I’m reminded of Jane Elliott’s “Blue-eyes-Brown-eyes” experiment, in which the 3rd-grade teacher separated her students by eye color and gave the blue-eyed children extra privileges. By the end of the day the blue-eyed children had become more arrogant and bossy and scored higher on tests than they ever did before; the brown-eyed children became more timid and isolated and their test performance suffered.

Many of us can relate to the brown-eyed children, whether because of our race, gender, or some other part of us that is outside of traditional privilege. It’s confounding. It hurts deeply. And yet it can be so tempting to accept the other role if we’re invited to, like when Elliott reversed the exercise.

I’m not likening Elliott’s experiment to anything right now. I’m not drawing any conclusions. I’m just pondering it because it popped in my head again, and so I’m trying to re-consider and learn from it. I’m seeing how my own behavior measures up.

Today’s Gemini moon reflects the healing power of images and communication. So I’m sharing this picture to validate and support the women of integrity and conviction who sent me the invitation. I didn’t create the social media blackout, so I really don’t have the authority, but I also don’t believe in exclusion. So if you don’t identify as a woman but feel moved to participate, I invite you to , also.

No one disputes the fact that Neptune is a planet, and so what it represents may have the last word: Compassion, vastness, unity, direct connection to the divine without boundaries or divisions.  But we wade through murky waters to get back there. We have personal and shared experiences of hell and of redemption. And they’re real and meaningful, even if not seen or acknowledged.

Recovery is a long and slow process. Stopping to consider Plutonian territory today — what’s mysterious or complex, the shameful or the shadow, especially as it has shown up in our past relationships — might enable us to move forward in some way today. But if we regularly plumb the depths or have recently been through acute pain and darkness, we may need to give ourselves credit; we might need a little break.

Wherever we happen to be, today's Pluto station and Gemini moon remind us to be patient and flexible with ourselves and with each other as we express what we're ready to, as we discern our right speed and direction.

Creating and Sharing Under the Leo moon

The moon is in the fiery, creative sign of Leo now, and I've been working on next Saturday's webinar: Enlightened Parenting Through Astrology: Five Times Astrology Made me a Better Mom.

I've never given a webinar. I've never taught a class. My parents are teachers and I'm astonished and awed by the impact they've had on so many people over decades. I think seeing the wisdom, charisma and passion they embodied kept me away from teaching. I didn't know if I could pull it off. I didn't want to try.

My siblings are performers. Their presence is captivating. They're funny. They're deep. They're transformative. I love supporting them. But I'm terrified to join them. I work an office job every day in a room by myself, hidden by a humongous computer screen, usually eating.

And yet I was asked by my dear, respected friend Tony Howard to give a class in the summit he created. And I said Yes, because I trust Tony's judgment in other people and I know Tony's high standards. And this topic is so dear to my heart. If I've put the hours and intention into anything in my life it's been into creating a family and learning and practicing astrology. But still, I'm scared.

The New Moon in Cancer on July 12th has symbolically brought an opportunity to rebirth nurturing, creative, loving energies in us. But Pluto in Capricorn is opposite the sun and moon in that new moon chart. Fear, dread, shame and limits can overpower and stop us before we start.

But what if we look at it differently? What if we see the times in our lives when the shy, protective, emotional shell of Cancer has been capable of stopping us before we even start? That's kind of where I was when Tony first approached me: No thank you, I'll watch the webinar from the comfort of home and someone else can present. In that case Pluto in Capricorn can be the helper -- drawing out what we're actually capable of. Plumbing the depths of who we've worked to become; letting that empower and transform us and those we encounter.

This new moon/Pluto action happens for me in the 4th and 10th house axis of home and family and career and the broader world. I can choose to stay home and just practice these techniques by myself and with my child, with my family and friends and local clients, Thank you very much. But a powerful friend is giving me this opportunity to share the information with a broader audience. And as I prepare it I know the techniques can help people nurture and support their children, or their clients who are parents. I just have to overcome my shyness and fear to do it.

Where does this new moon fall in your birth chart? Consider the Cancer solar and lunar themes positively and negatively. Let that inform your intentions for starts and renewals. And try to make a friend of Pluto. There's power inside and outside of you, an opportunity for creating and revealing something profound to yourself and others that you can do only when you realize you're already safe, loved and whole, and only when you can shed some of your ego and over-sensitivity. I hate saying that. Sensitive people bless and heal the world. So I hope you can see what I mean: We can get so lost in being sensitive that it cripples us or holds us from action, and that's where the Capricorn energy can help us. Leave something in this world that is born out of your sensitivity. Leave something tangible. Today's Leo moon can help inspire you.

It's been a pleasure to create this webinar. Next Saturday, I'll be drawing on my experience of motherhood, inspired by my parents' ability to teach and my siblings' ability to take the stage. I hope you'll join me. It's free, and from what I know of the other astrologers who are presenting, I'll be in outstanding company. Thank you, Tony, for the nudging at least one of us needed to bring this to light.

 

 

 

 

Being your own boss: The moon in Capricorn

Today the moon is in Capricorn, the sign of self-discipline, integrity, and mastery. Today is a chance to integrate what we’ve been working hard at with how we truly feel.

Check in with yourself. Give yourself a progress report. What are your greatest accomplishments? Has anything been exhausting you lately? Are you sticking with it because it’s important to you or because of a “should” you’ve outgrown?

Sometimes we have no control. Life is simply sad or hard, and we react humanly rather than stoically. We get worn down. We lose hope. We’re stopped in our tracks. But sometimes we stop ourselves in our tracks with fear or inertia. We lose imagination. We forget to expand.

Today the moon joins with Pluto, symbolically bringing what’s unconscious to our emotional attention. Spend some time with it, even if it’s uncomfortable. There’s something we need to see, transform, or release in order to move forward from a place of true authority and power.

Move intentionally through the day, so that you’re not overly harsh with yourself or others if you have a setback. If you experience that energy from others, know that there’s a lot going on beneath the surface. Don’t internalize crap that doesn’t belong to you. Be aware of any moments you need to draw boundaries for your own mental health and stability.

As you go through your day, work with the supporting energy of Jupiter to understand what comes up and reframe it in wisdom and hope. Hard work and focus can lead to freedom, success, and joy. But first, define what’s worth the time and effort to you.  

(Moon conjunct Pluto 2:21 p.m. EST. Moon sextile Jupiter in Scorpio 6:41 p.m.)

 

Getting to a place of Home: The Cancer moon faces tension

oday the moon forms quite a few tense aspects. We might need to remember to breathe today.

The day will start with a t-square involving Pluto and end with a grand cross involving Uranus. Yikes. How do we handle it?

First, recognize our emotional needs for the day. With a Cancer moon we’ll all be craving comfort and security to a certain extent. We’ll probably feel more sensitive. We may want to retreat.

But there are deep matters that need our attention. The disseminating, last quarter moon has a quality of shared ritual and release, and Pluto calls our attention to the dark areas of hell or the bright areas of empowerment. There are things we need to see or say today that will conflict with our need for safety. But this is time to get real.

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Pluto stations direct: Truth Time

Today Pluto stations direct. Pluto has been retrograde or seemed to move backwards since April 20th.

Pluto represents transformation and empowerment. According to Steven Forrest, Pluto is your wise wound. It symbolizes the psychological, the buried – how deeply you must go to retrieve your soul.

What depth work have you done in the past five months?

In Christianity the Passion of Jesus correlates with the symbolism of Pluto: Suffering, death and resurrection. “On the third day he rose again….” I only noticed the other day that during the Eucharistic prayer the priest says, “At the time he was betrayed and entered willingly into his Passion, he took bread and, giving thanks, broke it, and gave it to his disciples….” Entered willingly, giving thanks. HOW?

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Responsibility and truth: The Capricorn Moon conjunct Pluto

 
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Lyndon and I are both writing at the dining room table. He’s writing a book report for his summer assignment and I’m writing about the day. I start a new Word document called September 2017. The empty page intimidates me. Lyndon taps his fingers. I hear a lot of erasing. This is brutal for both of us.

I take a break to see what’s happening on Instagram. That doesn’t really help. Rather than being excited for people I just feel competitive and sad. I go back to writing. Lyndon asks me whether I agree that some books shouldn’t have sequels. I ask him whether we can have that conversation after we both finish. Ten-year-old boy sound effects intermittently escape from his mouth while he writes. He apologizes.  

I think this might be the moon’s sextile to Neptune: Fogginess, dissatisfaction, a desire to escape. But the escape is not completely satisfying while the moon is in Capricorn. The work is looming and important.

Maybe today is about trying your best in real life and helping loved ones through if you can. You might not be able to help as much as you'd like to or they'd like you to. You will likely need alone time and silence today, too. 

Soon the moon will join Pluto, making escape even harder and less satisfying. This aspect is one of every month’s moments of truth. It’s heavy. It’s a time for emotional clearing.  

Try to avoid comparison with others today. Try to do something that might be hard but can only come from you. It might be more helpful or satisfying than you imagine. Start by just facing it.

(Moon sextile Neptune in Pisces 6:20 a.m. Moon conjunct Pluto 2:28 p.m.)