Today's Pisces moon and entering the flow

This morning I woke up in a panic: How should I use my day off? I have so many projects going at once -- astrology projects, gardening projects, and general family projects that are ever looming. The last photo album I made for Lyndon went up to age two. The symbolism of the sky is so centered around creativity and expression that it can be both exciting and overwhelming. Am I doing enough?

I was thinking about the fixed nature of this week’s Aquarius full moon, and the idea that our lives and ideas have lasting impact. They just do. We’re all important. But every now and then we see ourselves as separate from the mix. We wonder where we fit in. When that happens, what’s our natural instinct: Is it to assert ourselves, seek company, recede?

I noticed this week that Lyndon hasn’t turned the pages on his Page-a-Day calendars since June 25th, his last day of school before summer vacation. He doesn’t know what day it is. He just goes with the flow. And under today’s Pisces moon that’s inspiring to me. I started a new job two weeks ago. Maybe today I can give myself a break.

Flooded by input from superstars and influencers, it can be hard to look beyond images to see the deeper ways we’re all the same. The mutable water symbolism of Pisces reminds us of both change and source. Has the flow of our lives taken us away from or brought us closer to whatever happens to be our own personal source - - God, creativity, family, love...?

It might help today to take a break from structure and routine in some way, even if your nature is more hard-driving and productive. The work and the ideas will be there when you get back, and they may gain new inspiration.

Sometimes we need to lose ourselves to find ourselves. But a lasting spark remains. To quote one of my favorite Pisces, Mister Rogers: “You can never go down the drain.”

 
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Venus conjunct Saturn and the Super Full Virgo Moon

 
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At 5:15 a.m. EST Venus and Saturn came together in Capricorn, for the first time since Christmas day 2017.

Saturn brings up themes of difficulty/mastery, loneliness/solitude, aging/wisdom, pessimism/realism, limits/a need for careful planning. Venus is associated with love and connection, but also with taking things a little too calmly or compromising too much for a sense of peace.

Saturn can feel harder. But if you’ve ever stuck with something difficult and come away with a lesson or a method worth sharing, that’s positive Saturn. For Saturn in Capricorn I’ve been thinking about Colin O’Brady, the first person to cross Antarctica alone. He called it “The Impossible First.” Lugging over 300 pounds of equipment and faced with whiteout conditions for almost the whole trip, he cried a lot while he was doing it; he said his tears immediately froze on his face. But he just kept going. He had planned, he had trained, and in 54 days he accomplished his goal.

Saturn stories are inspiring: We overcome the impossible with sheer grit and mature steadiness. At least it looks like that from the outside. On the inside we’re more like Colin O’Brady during the actual trek: Almost defeated, unable to see the end or even the next step.

Venus coming to Saturn represents an easing of what’s been hard or limiting for us personally and a call to befriend ourselves anew, from an adult place that honors all of our experiences up to this point. But it’s also a reminder to ally with those who are still limited or suffering, taking us out of isolation to notice who or what has helped us or to notice who or what can use our help.

Tomorrow’s full moon in Virgo is a Super Full Moon. It’ll look bigger and brighter because it’s closer to the earth. The mutable nature of the full moon reminds us of the way life keeps flowing and changing and so do we. And so I hope we can find ways to forgive our failings and to dream as we keep showing up -- human and superhuman, through tears and incredible feats.


Mercury square Saturn: Remember to listen and look

In November of last year a seed was planted. Mercury and Saturn joined at the same degree of Sagittarius. They joined together once more the next month, and finally the next – this time in Capricorn. Since then our mental processing and voice have had to pass through a series of stages toward wisdom, transformation and staying power, but not without grief, setbacks, and a lot of hard work.

How have your thinking and voice matured or left a mark since last November? What external events reflected a need to do so?

Wherever Saturn is going through your birth chart can seem like things are moving too slowly and you have to face too much alone. Today’s square from Mercury in Libra reminds us we have help. It reminds us there’s something we haven’t considered. It reminds us not to get too weighed down.

If we’ve been avoiding the work or letting someone else do it, it’s the reverse: Today is a reality check. Either way, it’s for our own benefit.

I’ve been plodding along but not always remembering the message of risk, reaching, freedom, and truth. That was the original promise. The Capricorn message of careful planning, uphill climbing, and a very long wait – winter – has probably been closer to my mindset. It’s been hard for me to stay hopeful. Today I needed to lighten up, look around, and breathe. The moon and Neptune coming together today help us return to our dream or start a new one.

Saturn in Capricorn is serious business, but growing up can inspire and teach us, too. Remember this process actually started as an arrow and a flame.

When the view isn't perfect: Waning Pisces moon

The last two mornings I’ve only been able to see the moon through the branches of my neighbor’s tree. It looks so promising and bright, and I crane my neck this way or that way to get a good look from different parts of my house. I write about the moon, and I read about the moon in posts from astrologer friends all over the world. And so when I can’t see the moon full-on it feels like a secret I can only hear parts of; two right numbers in a lottery ticket I was pretty sure would win.  

This morning I put on shoes with my pajamas and go outside to get a straight look at the moon. I have to walk three houses down – past the tree and several rows of wires – before I can finally just see the moon. Not the moon over the Eiffel Tower or the moon over a vast safari, but the moon over my neighbor’s house in Queens. Me in mismatched pajamas, with wild hair and morning breath.

In the sky there’s a feeling of not-quite-right – a feeling we’re not where or what we could be.

As the moon enters the sign of Aries today at 12:35 p.m., some small movement compels us a bit closer to a goal. Tomorrow when Mercury reaches the degree of the last new moon, we’ll be able to see something more clearly. On October 8th when Mars finally passes the degree it turned retrograde in June, we’ll be able to move more decisively. But today at some point and in some small way, we just need to leave our own house.

 

Love and the Full Pisces Moon

When we’re struck by jealousy or shame, when we find ourselves overwhelmed or ping-ponging between emotions, something grounds, steadies, and comforts us.

What or who comes to mind for you?

During today’s full moon, take some time to behold them – actually or just in your mind, until you feel a lightening or a shift.

And then behold yourself, more gently, sweetly, patiently, forgivingly than you did before. There’s a plan for you. You’re loved.

Reflection before the Aries sun

Mars entered Capricorn yesterday. With the moon in Aries until 9:06 p.m. EDT today, seven planetary bodies are now in cardinal signs, which have the energy of beginning. But the sun, representing a changing, deepening self, is still in the mutable water sign Pisces until tomorrow at around noon. So how can we be flexible until then? How can intuition, imagination, forgiveness, and love guide us and help us sense what’s important to give effort and energy to?

Pisces is hard on the ego. Pisces can be cloudy, murky. Lyndon has natal Mercury in Pisces and at Parent-Teacher conferences last week his teacher said, “I just don’t want next year’s teacher to wonder, ‘What is going on in Lyndon’s head?’” While the sun has been in Pisces I’ve been wondering what’s been going on in my head, too. I haven’t been sure what’s so important, where I fit in, or what I should do. I’ve been wanting to sleep more, have a drink, or watch TV. It’s an uncomfortable space for me. I’d rather be sure of myself and moving forward.

Tomorrow is the vernal equinox and in the Northern Hemisphere day will start to be longer than night. The Aries sun will represent action and courage for all of us. For me, a fire sign with an Aries Ascendant, that’s a bit of a relief. Finally. Let’s get going again. Please get me off my couch.

But I’ve rushed into the wrong things before. I’ve asserted myself too harshly or defended myself too strongly or gone forward too naively and been pulled back. So can the experience of this past month of Pisces help me go forward in confidence but not aggression, with courage but not fear? Can it help me remember kindness, imagination, and space?

I think so. I hope so. But if I happen to forget and seem a little stressed, please remind me that there’s nothing wrong with spending a few quiet moments on the couch.

Peace and power: The Pisces sun and Scorpio moon

Yesterday the sun joined Neptune and I hope in some way the fog lifted for you. I hope you have a broader sense of who you are.

Yesterday Mercury also joined Venus and I hope you got a glimpse of the love and beauty you’re here to give. I hope you could make peace with something that had been overwhelming you.

If you didn’t, or you haven’t, try today.

Today Mercury and Venus spend a final day in Pisces until next year. If your mind has taken on a script or your heart has let in a relationship that doesn’t reflect hope, sweetness, and the best of who you are, today you can release it. If you’re not ready or able to release it, try to see it with more freedom and space. It doesn’t define you. Your story is so much bigger.

The moon will enter Scorpio this morning, the sign of fixed water. Some of the emotional habits we’ve built up protect and strengthen us, and some just keep us stuck. Try to keep some flexibility today in your heart and mind so that emotions don’t overtake you, but instead help carry you through in peace and in power.

(Moon enters Scorpio 8:22 a.m. EST. Moon sextile Saturn 10:31 p.m.)