Today the moon is in the sign of mutable water, Pisces, and thank goodness.
I experienced the Aquarius new moon solar eclipse energy as the energy of the unsettling and awkward: What’s my place, how do I fit in, how do I get along, what’s worth saying. I’ve gotten it wrong this week just as I’ve gotten it wrong other times in my life. I texted my sister yesterday, “It’s so hard to live in society.” On the one hand Aquarius symbolizes the drive to individuate, and on the other hand, it symbolizes the drive to belong.
In high school I could never commit to a lunch table. I floated around each day; a few times a month I ate my lunch alone on the stairs or with the janitor. I told myself it was because I didn’t believe in labels or cliques, which was true, but I also didn’t want to be rejected. I didn’t want to hang around for the awkward day when the energy of the table was off.
When you’re just passing by, everyone’s happy to see you.
The recent eclipses have echoed that Aquarius/Leo dynamic: Group needs/heart needs; the intellectual or logical with the creative and the expressive. Sometimes when we share or show up we won’t be well-received. Is that a push to go where we’re celebrated or to step back from our hurt feelings and see a different side? Can we use both our heads and our hearts to discern?
This work is exhausting. This work takes a toll. So today, do something to recover: Listen to your favorite song, reach out to a favorite friend, nap, pray. Today at some point, it will feel good to let it be.
(Moon sextile Saturn in Capricorn 9:57 a.m. EST. Moon conjunct Venus 11:35 a.m.)