I wrote for an hour this morning and saved the entry, or thought I did….
Today's Aquarius moon challenges us to have a sense of humor about ourselves. It challenges us to reinvent ourselves. Can I let go of what I created this morning, knowing that it already served its purpose? Can I be open to a change in direction?
The moon or great mother combines with the Aquarian south node, which can make us edgy or defensive. Will we act out past wounds of being outed or ostracized, not seen or understood? We might. Are we sick and tired of this crap? We may be. And that's OK.
But there's also another option. Today we can remember the people or groups from our past that did accept us: the ones who let us in, who showed us a different way and became family for us, even for a moment.
My parents let me be a roamer when I was a kid. I loved the freedom and space. My friends' families took me on adventures and showed me new ways of being: different foods, family structures, pastimes, routines. Today I'm shocked by how generous they were to include me. I have trouble keeping track of just my kid. But so many adults made room for me in their station wagons, their pools, at their dining room tables. Were they as stretched thin and exhausted as I am now? When my friends awkwardly asked their parents in front of me whether I could stay another night, join them at the beach, or otherwise encroach on their plans, what made them say, "Sure"?
Think of the unlikely people or groups that played the Great Mother to you in your life. Whose differentness comforted you, fed your imagination and happiness, helped you feel safe? Did the individuality of your own parents or family help shape who you are today? Who made you believe that you belonged? Who made it OK to be you?
Try to honor them today. Pay it forward today by doing something radically loving yourself. Give space or understanding to someone you care about or make space for someone who's different.
And if you have a setback today, too, try to trust. There may be something else you need to see or say.