Honoring the Bittersweet Unspoken: The Scorpio Balsamic Moon

Today is the last day of the balsamic or waning crescent moon cycle before tomorrow’s new moon in Scorpio.

We’re also in the pre-shadow period of Mercury Retrograde. I’m feeling this one more than I usually do, maybe because Mercury is in the same sign as my natal Mercury, Sagittarius. I’m getting triggered into more arguments. I’m having to redo things at work. Somebody asked me how I was the other day, and I just opened my mouth and closed it again. I shook my head and raised my eyebrows. I let out a deep sigh and shrugged. I knew if I actually spoke I would cry. We just looked at each other for an extended moment, slowly nodding in unison. My coworker said he understood and was sorry to hear that. He lowered his head compassionately, and then awkwardly hurried away. Maybe he was able to hear and understand the unspoken, or maybe he chalked it up to a bad moment -- the copier jamming again or coffee spilled on my lap. What I would have said, if it were the time and place and I could find my voice, was, “Why am I here? What does this all mean? How do I keep trudging along?”

This morning Mercury makes an energizing aspect with Mars. It’s a chance to try to face and come to some peace with everything we’ve been taking in. Take some time to reflect. What’s gotten you angry lately? What’s unsettled you? Has anything or anybody helped you when you felt depleted or despondent? Is there anything you really want to say right now? To whom?

Be gentle with yourself and others as you sort through the bittersweet unspoken. Consider what you can release to a higher power and what you might need to actually, bravely say out loud. If you’d like to, perform a ritual to mark an ending, a letting go, or a poignant goodbye. But do spend some time with your feelings before tomorrow’s new moon. And above all, hang in there.

(Mercury sextile Mars 9:24 a.m. EST. Moon sextile Pluto 1:15 p.m.)