Where has Mercury taken you?

Tonight/tomorrow at 12:24 EDT Mercury stations direct at 11°31’ Leo, the second of three Mercury retrogrades this year. I was searching for an image of Mercury, and Freddie Mercury kept turning up. For vocal, playful Mercury in regal, dramatic Leo I thought, Why not?

Donna Cunningham writes about Mercury, “Mercury stands between Venus and the Sun in our solar system, and Mercury (communication) is the bridge between our inner selves (Sun) and other people we want to share with (Venus). Mercury always stays close to the Sun in the zodiac—it is rarely more than 27° from the Sun in our charts and is most often in the same sign and house as the Sun. However, if our thoughts are too wrapped up in ourselves, we create a barrier instead of a bridge.”

Mercury the metal is fluid: It’s the only metal to remain liquid at room temperature.  Mercury the Roman god is the god of merchants, travelers and transporters of goods, and thieves and tricksters. He’s considered a boundary-keeper and bridge between upper and lower worlds, guiding souls between the two. Mercury is also associated with learning, information, siblings, and youth.

The periods during the year when Mercury goes retrograde, seeming to slow down and go backwards from our point of view, are times to be more fluid ourselves but also more deep. What do we need to retrieve that’s been lost in the day-to-day busy-ness? How have we been tricked or tricked ourselves and others? What is it we’re really meant to carry and communicate and to whom?

From March 22nd through April 15th Mercury traveled retrograde from 16°54’ to 4°46’ Aries, the first sign of the zodiac and the sign of cardinal fire. From July 26th until August 19th it traveled between 23°27’ and 11°31’ Leo, the fifth sign of the zodiac and the sign of fixed fire. From November 16th to December 6th it will travel between 13°29’ Sagittarius and 27°16’ Scorpio, moving between the 9th sign of mutable fire to the eighth of fixed water. (Dates are for EDT.)

It’s tempting to dread retrograde periods. They’re correlated with things just going wrong. We have to be more flexible than we want to while feeling more stuck than we’re used to. My birthday is happening during the last retrograde of the year, and my first reaction was, “Oh crap.” A year of Mercury retrograde in my solar return or birthday chart. Wonderful.

But what if we look at retrogrades unfolding over time? In this year alone the retrograde periods all start in fire, the element of action and creative inspiration. Of course the last thing fire signs want is to be slowed down, so retrograde periods feel frustrating. But the benefit of slowing down fire is to aim it more intentionally, to go forward more truthfully.

This retrograde period we’ve seen in the news cycle the symbolism of Leo and Mercury in the Pennsylvania Grand Jury findings about the Catholic Church. For over 70 years leaders of the Church covered up the sexual abuse of children, shifting powerful abusers to different locations and perpetuating crime and suffering. In the U.S. the special counsel probe is trying to uncover the extent of Russian influence on the 2016 election, following methods of communication and exchanges of money for clues. In both cases a slow-down and reset button is better than moving forward without reflection and bringing the truth to light. Both of these cases have gotten people enraged, fired up, but also incredibly sad, especially if the Catholic Church or the U.S. reflects a part of our identity. Where do we go from here?

For many of us, these stories are personal, and they may be propelling us to an action or change. But after we look at the world we’re a part of, what if we look even deeper into our own lives?

Where do the three retrograde periods fall in your chart? What creative spark has been born, strengthened, and now needs to expand before it can find more of a fixed course? How have redirections in your life this year moved you closer to really connecting with your true self and with others? Were there avenues you explored that turned out to be the wrong ones? Can you let them go as mirages or mistakes?

We’ve all been victims of Leo ego and power dynamics at the hands of others and this Mercury in Leo time can help us see and heal that. But if we’re human and honest we’ve probably been on both sides. It would be a missed opportunity if we just noticed the news or other people’s missteps during retrograde periods. Mercury in Leo can also reveal the times when we’ve been blowhards, abused our power, been attached to our own hurt feelings and pride. This retrograde period has made me really appreciate the people who’ve forgiven me, who saw I could do better, who didn’t let my worst behavior define me. And it helped me see who guided me through dark, dark places, keeping the shining the light for me until I could finally hold it myself.

Wishing you revelations of creativity, power, protection, play, performance, worth, truth, and love on this final day of retrograde.

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Cunningham, Donna. An Astrological Guide to Self-Awareness. Moon Maven Publications, 2005.

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https://www.nytimes.com/2018/08/14/us/catholic-priests-pennsylvania-church-jury.html

 

The Queen and Me -- RIP Aretha

Oh, Aretha. Her songs bringing me back to the scene of my budding confidence, the beginning sense of my own, adult femaleness: Power and pleading, freedom and vulnerability. I remember dancing to Respect in college dorm rooms with my friends before we headed to bars or clubs. Something about that ritual or Aretha’s lesson helped us stay safer out there, wordlessly closing our circle against creeps when our guts or intuition told us to. She helped cement that time and our friendship as fun, full, and sacred. We didn’t have much money, I could never seem to find a boyfriend, but in our circle we had and we were enough.

In grad school I remember making a mix tape with Natural Woman for the wrong guy. And I remember reclaiming that song for myself before I met the right one.

My brother Ted noted yesterday that most celebrations in America include Aretha’s music on the playlist.

Aretha was a queen, a coach, a diva, a preacher, a flame and a balm. Under today’s Scorpio moon, spend some time with her music or the memories of your own life unfolding, in awkward, hard, beautiful, holy, and just-right ways.

A Way Forward: Venus in Libra

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The prevailing energy in the sky right now is fixed and cardinal. Five planetary bodies are in fixed signs and four are in cardinal signs. Only Neptune is in the mutable sign of Pisces right now, being all flexible and receptive. The rest of the sky is staying the course or breaking new ground.

Of the four cardinal planets right now, three are retrograde, putting some brakes on the acceleration. I love cardinal energy. I love action and newness. I’m good in that space. I’m not as good at simply sticking things out. So I’ve been struggling with all this retrograde and fixed energy. It feels like a big, exhausting hike to nowhere.

So what can we do? If you’re comfortable in the fixed sphere, enjoy. If you like the retrograde energy of introspection and revision, have at it. But if you’ve been itching to get going, Venus can help.

I was in a rut two days ago, bored and depleted. I had been setting my alarm earlier to write before work and sleeping through my alarm instead. What was the point of writing? Who even cared? What did it even accomplish? Lang gave me some perspective: It helped my mood when I wrote. Maybe it helped other people. Maybe just getting my astrology out more would lead to something eventually. But staying in bed and sleeping probably wouldn’t. And I listened to him with an assface, annoyed, because a part of me only knew how to be fixed in my own bad mood for now. But another part of me saw that he was trying to connect and get through to me. And so I begrudgingly asked for his help. I hadn’t been motivated or able to get out of bed early enough on my own to face anything but work. I was rewarding myself with sleep but in the end that only made me sadder. So for the past two days Lang’s made it his mission to wake me up early to write. And that show of support has probably calmed me just as much as writing has. It was just too hard to start alone.

Venus in the cardinal sign of Libra can help you get going if you reach out to someone. There’s something you need to think or talk through for a greater sense of peace. We can’t do Venus work alone unless we’re a Zenlike Ninja artist like Bob Ross. He might have been able to work out Venus and Libra issues alone with his paints. But even he had us to speak to while he was doing it. In that shared space serenity and beauty are born.

And so if you’re feeling stuck or unsettled today, reach out. Pray, call a friend, write an email, but air out some of your troubles so you can move forward if you need to – in peace.

Mercury Retrograde and Speaking from a Broken Heart

Probably most of you know that Mercury is retrograde. Your cable may have gone out, your phone or computer may be on the fritz, one of your tires may have spontaneously gone its own way on the highway…. Many of us have the 19th at around midnight EDT etched on our calendars or in our brains as a finish line we’re hobbling toward, when Mercury will station direct and we can use our appliances smoothly again. If anything in life just flows, to some extent that’s Mercury: the fleet-footed Messenger of the gods, ruling the exchange of information and the versatility of our thoughts, words, and mindset. Retrograde periods will test our flexibility. Are we on auto-pilot? Is there something we’ve failed to see or say?

Mercury is in the sign of Leo now – the Child, the Lion, the King or Queen. Leo rules the sun and the heart, the symbols of our essence and life force. Leo reminds us of our dignity and our vulnerability too. The sign of fixed fire, when it is unhealthy or perverted from its positive expression, Leo overwhelms and annihilates.

Yesterday we learned that the Catholic Church covered up the abuse of over 1,000 children in Pennsylvania.

And I feel the need to say it, because I’m Catholic, and I work at a Catholic school, and my heart is broken. The Church that has been a source of joy and inspiration for me has also always tested my inner barometer of fairness: Why were only boys allowed to be altar servers? Why were only men allowed to be priests? Why were divorced or Gay Catholics made to feel less-than? These questions kept Lang and me from baptizing our own son into the Church, even as the Church made some forward progress. There were female altar servers at our wedding, wearing headbands and trendy shoes. And of course, now there’s Pope Francis, humble, joyful, wise, and prayerful, bringing so many of us hope.

I don’t know how to process the horror and scale of the abuse that these priests perpetrated and the hierarchy covered up. But I do feel the need to denounce it, on behalf of the truly good Catholics who have raised me and continue to inspire me every day at work, and on behalf of the victims and their families. You deserved to be safe. You were violated in unimaginable, unspeakable ways. I’m on your side, and I’m so, so sorry.

Six planets are retrograde now, reflecting our need to go back before we can go forward, to redo, retrieve or repair what is outmoded, broken, or in contrast to our highest expression and calling. With three of these planets now in Capricorn, some of that will be our own history and traditions. In the rituals of Mass I first learned how to reflect, speak to, and merge with a God who loves me. In the company of truly good and holy Catholics I first learned how to see and celebrate the divine in others. And still… I need to scream from the highest mountain that what happened to these children was not, was never, will never be OK.

Before the 19th, see if you can look at or say something hard too, because your dignity matters or because someone else’s does. Discover a different way you’re being called to lead or to love.

Some questions under today's lunar eclipse

"A total lunar eclipse occurs when the moon and the sun are on exact opposite sides of Earth. Although the moon is in Earth's shadow, some sunlight reaches the moon. The sunlight passes through Earth's atmosphere, which causes Earth’s atmosphere to filter out most of the blue light. This makes the moon appear red to people on Earth." https://www.nasa.gov/audience/forstudents/5-8/features/nasa-knows/what-is-an-eclipse-58

Today the earth will shade the full Aquarian moon for several hours, and these are some of the questions I've been pondering:

Thinking of eclipses in terms of entrances or exits, what is it I might want in my life that I've never had, or what might I be ready to end ?

We all filter the light we receive from others. How does my particular filter work? Does it protect me enough from what might overpower me? Does it protect me too much from the light and positive input of others? How comfortable am I with attention -- both giving and receiving?

Has earth energy -- patience, stability, practicality, rootedness ever bolstered me against the extremes of fire and air -- impatience and worry ? In what's truly important to me, do I have both roots and flowers? Has any attachment to earth qualities kept me back from really owning and expressing my passion and individuality, or stopped me from taking a risk? What are my usual responses to conflict or crisis?

Every full moon is a chance to become aware of the projections in our lives -- to see and heal our relationship to Other, to pull back some of the projection and see ourselves in everything. This lunar eclipse amplifies the opportunity. Who really impresses me? Who really stands out to me as a genius or a star? I'm closer to them than I think. That also goes for the other side: The people who rub me the wrong way or offend me. We're made of the same stuff, too. How can releasing some of those projections bring me closer to love, power, and right action? Where do I need defenses, and where do I just need boundaries? And when and with whom can I just be comfy and fluid, creative, and whole?

Happy Full Moon and Eclipse. Happy ruminations and happy revelations. 

Thank You

The early Leo sun is just rising above the horizon and I'm filled with gratitude. The chart of the moment shows the sun opposite Mars in Aquarius, with Uranus in Taurus squaring both in a T-square. But because the sun and Mars are faster, it's more appropriate to say that they're squaring Uranus. And I forget the nuance of that sometimes. That our inner planets move into and out of aspects with the outer planets, and not the other way around. That we engage with them. 

This weekend I faced some of my Mars fears: Speaking in front of an audience, sharing my personal story, putting myself out there as an astrologer. As the day approached I felt less and less up to the task. When Tony Howard started the Facebook Live video my mouth was a small, thin line. Watching it later, I was struck by the tension in my face. Mars. Go time. Gearing up to face the battle.

But I didn't meet a Uranian earthquake. I met a tender, warm, and patient community eager to learn and share. I met a team of helpers at Astrology University who had my back and a group of caring colleagues who also took a risk to shine and share during the weekend. And a higher power gave me back my smile.

Under today's Sagittarius moon there could be a mood of exaggeration. And yet in the moon's T-square to Venus in Virgo and Neptune in Pisces I'm reminded of Mister Rogers talking about big and small. Mister Rogers was always good at making space for everything: Fast and slow, big and small.

Take some time today to bask in both the sweetest detail and the larger world that blesses you while you bless it. And thank you all for helping me so much. 

Creating and Sharing Under the Leo moon

The moon is in the fiery, creative sign of Leo now, and I've been working on next Saturday's webinar: Enlightened Parenting Through Astrology: Five Times Astrology Made me a Better Mom.

I've never given a webinar. I've never taught a class. My parents are teachers and I'm astonished and awed by the impact they've had on so many people over decades. I think seeing the wisdom, charisma and passion they embodied kept me away from teaching. I didn't know if I could pull it off. I didn't want to try.

My siblings are performers. Their presence is captivating. They're funny. They're deep. They're transformative. I love supporting them. But I'm terrified to join them. I work an office job every day in a room by myself, hidden by a humongous computer screen, usually eating.

And yet I was asked by my dear, respected friend Tony Howard to give a class in the summit he created. And I said Yes, because I trust Tony's judgment in other people and I know Tony's high standards. And this topic is so dear to my heart. If I've put the hours and intention into anything in my life it's been into creating a family and learning and practicing astrology. But still, I'm scared.

The New Moon in Cancer on July 12th has symbolically brought an opportunity to rebirth nurturing, creative, loving energies in us. But Pluto in Capricorn is opposite the sun and moon in that new moon chart. Fear, dread, shame and limits can overpower and stop us before we start.

But what if we look at it differently? What if we see the times in our lives when the shy, protective, emotional shell of Cancer has been capable of stopping us before we even start? That's kind of where I was when Tony first approached me: No thank you, I'll watch the webinar from the comfort of home and someone else can present. In that case Pluto in Capricorn can be the helper -- drawing out what we're actually capable of. Plumbing the depths of who we've worked to become; letting that empower and transform us and those we encounter.

This new moon/Pluto action happens for me in the 4th and 10th house axis of home and family and career and the broader world. I can choose to stay home and just practice these techniques by myself and with my child, with my family and friends and local clients, Thank you very much. But a powerful friend is giving me this opportunity to share the information with a broader audience. And as I prepare it I know the techniques can help people nurture and support their children, or their clients who are parents. I just have to overcome my shyness and fear to do it.

Where does this new moon fall in your birth chart? Consider the Cancer solar and lunar themes positively and negatively. Let that inform your intentions for starts and renewals. And try to make a friend of Pluto. There's power inside and outside of you, an opportunity for creating and revealing something profound to yourself and others that you can do only when you realize you're already safe, loved and whole, and only when you can shed some of your ego and over-sensitivity. I hate saying that. Sensitive people bless and heal the world. So I hope you can see what I mean: We can get so lost in being sensitive that it cripples us or holds us from action, and that's where the Capricorn energy can help us. Leave something in this world that is born out of your sensitivity. Leave something tangible. Today's Leo moon can help inspire you.

It's been a pleasure to create this webinar. Next Saturday, I'll be drawing on my experience of motherhood, inspired by my parents' ability to teach and my siblings' ability to take the stage. I hope you'll join me. It's free, and from what I know of the other astrologers who are presenting, I'll be in outstanding company. Thank you, Tony, for the nudging at least one of us needed to bring this to light.

 

 

 

 

The Taurus New Moon and Uranus in Taurus

Today at 7:47 a.m. EDT there will be a Taurus New Moon at 24°36' Taurus. Uranus will move into Taurus at 11:17 a.m after having spent almost eight years in Aries (May - August 2010, March 2011 until today.) 

How has your life changed since 2010? What did you begin? What changes upended who you thought you were or the path you thought you were traveling? Have you found a role as part of a new group? Which crises or adventures brought breakthroughs? How have you dared to become weirder, or to take a counter-cultural stand?

I started studying Astrology in 2010 as a way to understand the inner turmoil and unrest I was feeling as a stay-at-home Mom and wife. Lyndon was in nursery school and I was feeling lonely and unfulfilled. That year I also started working outside the home, first part-time and then full-time. In the last eight years Uranus joined with my Ascendant, moon and Chiron. I do feel different now and more willing to show up even if I might get rejected. I've accepted a broader definition of who I am and have dared to explore and share more of my inner life and creativity. Maybe it's age, and maybe I've internalized a little more of the Uranian who-gives-a-crap-what-people-say detachment and openness to shake-ups. I'm not fully there, but I'm trying. I hope that the ways I've grown and asserted myself will prepare me for changes and breakthroughs in the next 8 years in Taurus areas -- for me the second house of money and self-worth.

Where does Taurus fall in your birth chart? Where does Aries?

By all means, learn about and explore the combination of Taurus and Uranus archetypes to anticipate what could be stirring for the next cycle. But also look back and within. For all its positive associations, the joining of Uranus and Aries also symbolized trauma survival. In the past eight years, all of us have survived some unexpected trauma or loss. Our bodies, resources, nature, and certain loving relationships somehow sustained us. As you usher in the Taurus new moon, take some time to see and feel the power and stability of everything that helped you endure.

Today we begin again in the dark, as we began in the womb so many years before. Try to ground yourself in peace and openness to all that's building.

 

 

Venus in Gemini with a Saturn Overtone: The Thinker

 
  The Thinker , Auguste Rodin, Metropolitan Museum of Art

The Thinker, Auguste Rodin, Metropolitan Museum of Art

 

Today Venus enters exciting, expressive Gemini, where it will be until May 19th. How can we bring a beginner's mind of openness, curiosity and flexibility to our relationships, to our own wellbeing, and to what we create? Why is now a good time for it? 

Crucially, it will energize us. While the sun is in Taurus, Taurus's ruling planet, Venus, holds a key to accessing our life force and well, shine. Opening our minds and our senses will be tied to feeling the power and brilliance of our sun and the steady, comforting peace and strength of Taurus. But getting to that peace and strength will take some different and possibly challenging strategies until May 13th.  

Why? From May 13th - 19th, Venus and Mercury, the planet that rules Gemini, will be in each other’s signs – Venus in Gemini and Mercury in Taurus – so symbolically they can excite and support each other in a positive feedback loop that in turn energizes the sun. But before then, in true Gemini fashion, we'll be bouncing around a Venus trail that leads to Saturn, and Saturn's not the fun and airy ending that Gemini might have had in mind. (Astro jargon background: Until May 13th, Mercury in Aries “disposits” Venus in Gemini, Mars in Capricorn disposits Mercury, and Saturn in Capricorn disposits Mars, making Saturn the Final Dispositor.) So although Venus in Gemini is about being open to variety, newness, fascination, learning, movement, and change in love, inner peace, and art, the symbolism of Saturn in Capricorn adds an editing quality to the Venus: a careful planning and consideration. What’s truly important to say to another person or to express in your art in this moment? How can maturity, patience, integrity and wisdom inform the beginner's mind? How do experiences of personal struggle, loss, and grief shape the love you can give to yourself and to others? Can they empower and embolden you, steady and inform you but not scare you, control you, or entirely define you? Can you leave some lines blank? 

Saturn's connection with Venus until May 13th reminds us that what we express in love and art lasts – in a hug, a kind word, a letter, a creation. And that can be frightening and intimidating. You may be tempted to stop yourself before you even begin. And so give yourself time and solitude to sort through what you take in every day and what you want to express. Organize and set goals if that helps. But in the next few weeks challenge yourself out of your comfort zone a little, too. Try your best to move, explore, and grow incrementally -- as a parent, a partner, a relative, an artist, a friend. The highest expression of this Venus transit will be to open yourself in fascination to all that's still left to learn, and to share with others — simply, profoundly – who you are right now and what you have to say. 

 

The shock of the Aquarius moon

Today the moon is in the sign of Aquarius: the rebel, the genius, the humanitarian, the friend, the sign of fixed air. How might our hearts be healed by Aquarius today?

Well, basically if we’re overcome by anger, fear, exhaustion or “shoulds.” With three planets in Aries and three in Capricorn right now, we might feel the impetus to go forward, to move on, to do something we can be proud of. But the symbolism of Mercury retrograde puts the brakes on. And so we might turn that assertive energy inwardly if things are not happening according to our plans, thinking there’s something wrong with us. It’s tempting to think that on some level we failed or we suck, or if we don’t, other people definitely do.

Enter Aquarius. What if you’re a refreshing original and everyone else is, too? What if we can see our starts and progress from a logical, open-minded point of view? What have you built over time that’s unique or groundbreaking? What have you started that helped the group or made a safe place for someone in distress or trauma?

Today visualize, name and cherish those victories. Center yourself with conscious breaths and honor your creative outlook and your staying power. Give yourself time and space and challenge any inner messages that have become steady but might not be loving or helpful. And if you can, break free a little from your routine to let in some interesting surprises. They might help you remember the ways that you’re an interesting, fascinating, endlessly-evolving surprise, too.  

Reflection before the Aries sun

Mars entered Capricorn yesterday. With the moon in Aries until 9:06 p.m. EDT today, seven planetary bodies are now in cardinal signs, which have the energy of beginning. But the sun, representing a changing, deepening self, is still in the mutable water sign Pisces until tomorrow at around noon. So how can we be flexible until then? How can intuition, imagination, forgiveness, and love guide us and help us sense what’s important to give effort and energy to?

Pisces is hard on the ego. Pisces can be cloudy, murky. Lyndon has natal Mercury in Pisces and at Parent-Teacher conferences last week his teacher said, “I just don’t want next year’s teacher to wonder, ‘What is going on in Lyndon’s head?’” While the sun has been in Pisces I’ve been wondering what’s been going on in my head, too. I haven’t been sure what’s so important, where I fit in, or what I should do. I’ve been wanting to sleep more, have a drink, or watch TV. It’s an uncomfortable space for me. I’d rather be sure of myself and moving forward.

Tomorrow is the vernal equinox and in the Northern Hemisphere day will start to be longer than night. The Aries sun will represent action and courage for all of us. For me, a fire sign with an Aries Ascendant, that’s a bit of a relief. Finally. Let’s get going again. Please get me off my couch.

But I’ve rushed into the wrong things before. I’ve asserted myself too harshly or defended myself too strongly or gone forward too naively and been pulled back. So can the experience of this past month of Pisces help me go forward in confidence but not aggression, with courage but not fear? Can it help me remember kindness, imagination, and space?

I think so. I hope so. But if I happen to forget and seem a little stressed, please remind me that there’s nothing wrong with spending a few quiet moments on the couch.

Put your dukes up: Mercury and Venus enter Aries

Mercury entered the sign of Aries today, where it will be until May 13th. This evening Venus enters Aries, too, where it will be until March 31st.

The planets representing voice, learning and love and art are entering the sign of the Warrior. Anything in Aries is under some stress. The sign of cardinal fire, Aries starts. Sometimes we start because we want to and sometimes because we have to. But either way, it’s risky and scary. It’s uncharted. It can be explosive.

If you can intentionally notice excitement or fear in yourself and in those around you for that time period, it may help you understand, connect and avoid unnecessary conflicts. We might all come off a little too strongly. We could be a little too harsh or blunt. But we’re all facing a restart in the way we learn, process, and express ourselves and in who or what we hold dear.

Until March 17th, while the ruler of Aries, Mars, is in Sagittarius, let meaning power these beginnings. What’s the bigger picture? How would you like to expand, explore, risk or succeed? Why is it important to you? If you begin with hopeful inspiration and a bit of moxy, when Mars enters Capricorn, you can start to build in more concrete, lasting ways. But let faith and curiosity start the process rather than a sense of already knowing the outcome. Leave room for surprises and change. The positive expression of Aries is in encouraging yourself and others, protecting the vulnerable, forging a better way ahead.

The first sign, Aries gets us touch with what’s basic, raw, and sensitive within us. It’s up to us to decide if we defend or express it, how, when, and with whom.

(Mercury enters Aries 2:34 a.m. EST. Moon trine Neptune 10:22 a.m. Moon trine sun 2:27 p.m. Venus enters Aries 6:45 p.m. Moon sextile Pluto 11:12 p.m.)

Peace and power: The Pisces sun and Scorpio moon

Yesterday the sun joined Neptune and I hope in some way the fog lifted for you. I hope you have a broader sense of who you are.

Yesterday Mercury also joined Venus and I hope you got a glimpse of the love and beauty you’re here to give. I hope you could make peace with something that had been overwhelming you.

If you didn’t, or you haven’t, try today.

Today Mercury and Venus spend a final day in Pisces until next year. If your mind has taken on a script or your heart has let in a relationship that doesn’t reflect hope, sweetness, and the best of who you are, today you can release it. If you’re not ready or able to release it, try to see it with more freedom and space. It doesn’t define you. Your story is so much bigger.

The moon will enter Scorpio this morning, the sign of fixed water. Some of the emotional habits we’ve built up protect and strengthen us, and some just keep us stuck. Try to keep some flexibility today in your heart and mind so that emotions don’t overtake you, but instead help carry you through in peace and in power.

(Moon enters Scorpio 8:22 a.m. EST. Moon sextile Saturn 10:31 p.m.)

Shining through the fog: The Leo moon and Pisces sun

 
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Today try to leave a personal expression of yourself out there today.

You may not want to. I didn’t want to. With five planets in water signs right now and the sun approaching Neptune, things feel a little foggy. What’s the point? Someone else will say something, share something, create something. It’s all good. I’ll just be over here watching my favorite show.

But the Leo moon invites us to show up.  And if we do take that risk, we find ourselves comforted. We  let go of something we didn’t even know we were still carrying. We learn something new about ourselves, love, and God. And we find the point after all.

So first, try. And if you notice others trying today, let them know that you see them, and you understand.

(Venus in Pisces sextile Pluto in Capricorn 5:20 a.m. EST.

The moon in Pisces: Let it be

Today the moon is in the sign of mutable water, Pisces, and thank goodness.

I experienced the Aquarius new moon solar eclipse energy as the energy of the unsettling and awkward: What’s my place, how do I fit in, how do I get along, what’s worth saying. I’ve gotten it wrong this week just as I’ve gotten it wrong other times in my life. I texted my sister yesterday, “It’s so hard to live in society.” On the one hand Aquarius symbolizes the drive to individuate, and on the other hand, it symbolizes the drive to belong.

In high school I could never commit to a lunch table. I floated around each day; a few times a month I ate my lunch alone on the stairs or with the janitor. I told myself it was because I didn’t believe in labels or cliques, which was true, but I also didn’t want to be rejected. I didn’t want to hang around for the awkward day when the energy of the table was off.

When you’re just passing by, everyone’s happy to see you.

The recent eclipses have echoed that Aquarius/Leo dynamic: Group needs/heart needs; the intellectual or logical with the creative and the expressive. Sometimes when we share or show up we won’t be well-received. Is that a push to go where we’re celebrated or to step back from our hurt feelings and see a different side?  Can we use both our heads and our hearts to discern?

This work is exhausting. This work takes a toll. So today, do something to recover: Listen to your favorite song, reach out to a favorite friend, nap, pray. Today at some point, it will feel good to let it be.

(Moon sextile Saturn in Capricorn 9:57 a.m. EST. Moon conjunct Venus 11:35 a.m.)

The New Moon and Solar Eclipse in Aquarius

As today's new moon and solar eclipse in Aquarius approach, I hope you'll take some time to reflect on and name what's unique and special about you. There's not only space for it but a need for it in the world around you. Peace be with you.

Being your own boss: The moon in Capricorn

Today the moon is in Capricorn, the sign of self-discipline, integrity, and mastery. Today is a chance to integrate what we’ve been working hard at with how we truly feel.

Check in with yourself. Give yourself a progress report. What are your greatest accomplishments? Has anything been exhausting you lately? Are you sticking with it because it’s important to you or because of a “should” you’ve outgrown?

Sometimes we have no control. Life is simply sad or hard, and we react humanly rather than stoically. We get worn down. We lose hope. We’re stopped in our tracks. But sometimes we stop ourselves in our tracks with fear or inertia. We lose imagination. We forget to expand.

Today the moon joins with Pluto, symbolically bringing what’s unconscious to our emotional attention. Spend some time with it, even if it’s uncomfortable. There’s something we need to see, transform, or release in order to move forward from a place of true authority and power.

Move intentionally through the day, so that you’re not overly harsh with yourself or others if you have a setback. If you experience that energy from others, know that there’s a lot going on beneath the surface. Don’t internalize crap that doesn’t belong to you. Be aware of any moments you need to draw boundaries for your own mental health and stability.

As you go through your day, work with the supporting energy of Jupiter to understand what comes up and reframe it in wisdom and hope. Hard work and focus can lead to freedom, success, and joy. But first, define what’s worth the time and effort to you.  

(Moon conjunct Pluto 2:21 p.m. EST. Moon sextile Jupiter in Scorpio 6:41 p.m.)

 

Getting back on track, but differently

 
 A photo I took in Barcelona, 2014

A photo I took in Barcelona, 2014

 

Today Mercury joins with the south node and we can change the way we process what we notice, freeing us up to move in different ways.

In astrology the south node is a place of wounding that we carry from our past. When Mercury joins with it in Aquarius, people might lash out unexpectedly from a place of wounding. Will we get hooked or triggered? Will we get pulled back into old scripts?

Mercury famously can be a trickster. Today we might take in messages or even express ourselves in ways that no longer serve us, feeding our sense of isolation, rejection, and despair. That option is available to us. Don’t fall for it.  There’s enough room for all of us. You don’t have to go away, or hide, or fit into a mold that oppresses you or simply no longer fits.

Today’s a little like getting back on a bike to ride again for the first time after many years. You know how to do it, but it’s a little scary, and it’s not as automatic as when you were little. You have to pay more attention. You’re not the same person and it’s gonna look and feel a little differently this time around. That’s OK.

Keep trying, remember to have fun, and every now and then, look up to notice who else might be taking a risk and trying a new way forward, too.

(Moon in Sagittarius conjunct Mars 1:39 a.m. EST. Mercury conjunct south node in Aquarius 8:32 a.m. Moon square Neptune 11:03 a.m. Moon sextile Mercury 3:32 p.m.)

Love too deep to express: The Scorpio Moon and My Son's 11th Birthday

 
Lyndon hospital photos.JPG
 

It’s the last few hours of the Scorpio moon and it’s Lyndon’s 11th birthday.

On the day he was born the moon was in Libra, and since he’s come he’s shown us how to be kinder, how to laugh at ourselves, and how to ask for help.

I asked him the other day if he learned any life lessons this year. He said, “Hmmm. Let me think about it.” He came back later and said, “I know what I learned. I learned that nothing is forever. As bad as your situation is right now, things will change.”

And so as I sit still in deep shock and awe at this wonderful boy who joined us 11 years ago, I’ll share his words today. Mine are swimming in my heart right now and streaming down my face. I’m just so glad he came.

(Moon enters Sagittarius 8:53 a.m. EST)

Being where you are: The moon in Virgo

Today the moon is in Virgo, the sign of mutable earth.

I was thinking about nature interacting with its surroundings – a flower responding to water or to the sun, to conditions from harsh to ideal. My plants perking back up every time I think I’ve finally killed them.

And then I thought about us, and how hard it is to be a changing, living thing interacting with the outside world. What we meet each day can nourish or devastate us, and yet somehow the contract of living things is to face the unpredictable. How very incredible. How brave and astounding.

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