The moon in Pisces: Let it be

Today the moon is in the sign of mutable water, Pisces, and thank goodness.

I experienced the Aquarius new moon solar eclipse energy as the energy of the unsettling and awkward: What’s my place, how do I fit in, how do I get along, what’s worth saying. I’ve gotten it wrong this week just as I’ve gotten it wrong other times in my life. I texted my sister yesterday, “It’s so hard to live in society.” On the one hand Aquarius symbolizes the drive to individuate, and on the other hand, it symbolizes the drive to belong.

In high school I could never commit to a lunch table. I floated around each day; a few times a month I ate my lunch alone on the stairs or with the janitor. I told myself it was because I didn’t believe in labels or cliques, which was true, but I also didn’t want to be rejected. I didn’t want to hang around for the awkward day when the energy of the table was off.

When you’re just passing by, everyone’s happy to see you.

The recent eclipses have echoed that Aquarius/Leo dynamic: Group needs/heart needs; the intellectual or logical with the creative and the expressive. Sometimes when we share or show up we won’t be well-received. Is that a push to go where we’re celebrated or to step back from our hurt feelings and see a different side?  Can we use both our heads and our hearts to discern?

This work is exhausting. This work takes a toll. So today, do something to recover: Listen to your favorite song, reach out to a favorite friend, nap, pray. Today at some point, it will feel good to let it be.

(Moon sextile Saturn in Capricorn 9:57 a.m. EST. Moon conjunct Venus 11:35 a.m.)

The New Moon and Solar Eclipse in Aquarius

As today's new moon and solar eclipse in Aquarius approach, I hope you'll take some time to reflect on and name what's unique and special about you. There's not only space for it but a need for it in the world around you. Peace be with you.

Being your own boss: The moon in Capricorn

Today the moon is in Capricorn, the sign of self-discipline, integrity, and mastery. Today is a chance to integrate what we’ve been working hard at with how we truly feel.

Check in with yourself. Give yourself a progress report. What are your greatest accomplishments? Has anything been exhausting you lately? Are you sticking with it because it’s important to you or because of a “should” you’ve outgrown?

Sometimes we have no control. Life is simply sad or hard, and we react humanly rather than stoically. We get worn down. We lose hope. We’re stopped in our tracks. But sometimes we stop ourselves in our tracks with fear or inertia. We lose imagination. We forget to expand.

Today the moon joins with Pluto, symbolically bringing what’s unconscious to our emotional attention. Spend some time with it, even if it’s uncomfortable. There’s something we need to see, transform, or release in order to move forward from a place of true authority and power.

Move intentionally through the day, so that you’re not overly harsh with yourself or others if you have a setback. If you experience that energy from others, know that there’s a lot going on beneath the surface. Don’t internalize crap that doesn’t belong to you. Be aware of any moments you need to draw boundaries for your own mental health and stability.

As you go through your day, work with the supporting energy of Jupiter to understand what comes up and reframe it in wisdom and hope. Hard work and focus can lead to freedom, success, and joy. But first, define what’s worth the time and effort to you.  

(Moon conjunct Pluto 2:21 p.m. EST. Moon sextile Jupiter in Scorpio 6:41 p.m.)

 

Getting back on track, but differently

 
A photo I took in Barcelona, 2014

A photo I took in Barcelona, 2014

 

Today Mercury joins with the south node and we can change the way we process what we notice, freeing us up to move in different ways.

In astrology the south node is a place of wounding that we carry from our past. When Mercury joins with it in Aquarius, people might lash out unexpectedly from a place of wounding. Will we get hooked or triggered? Will we get pulled back into old scripts?

Mercury famously can be a trickster. Today we might take in messages or even express ourselves in ways that no longer serve us, feeding our sense of isolation, rejection, and despair. That option is available to us. Don’t fall for it.  There’s enough room for all of us. You don’t have to go away, or hide, or fit into a mold that oppresses you or simply no longer fits.

Today’s a little like getting back on a bike to ride again for the first time after many years. You know how to do it, but it’s a little scary, and it’s not as automatic as when you were little. You have to pay more attention. You’re not the same person and it’s gonna look and feel a little differently this time around. That’s OK.

Keep trying, remember to have fun, and every now and then, look up to notice who else might be taking a risk and trying a new way forward, too.

(Moon in Sagittarius conjunct Mars 1:39 a.m. EST. Mercury conjunct south node in Aquarius 8:32 a.m. Moon square Neptune 11:03 a.m. Moon sextile Mercury 3:32 p.m.)

Love too deep to express: The Scorpio Moon and My Son's 11th Birthday

 
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It’s the last few hours of the Scorpio moon and it’s Lyndon’s 11th birthday.

On the day he was born the moon was in Libra, and since he’s come he’s shown us how to be kinder, how to laugh at ourselves, and how to ask for help.

I asked him the other day if he learned any life lessons this year. He said, “Hmmm. Let me think about it.” He came back later and said, “I know what I learned. I learned that nothing is forever. As bad as your situation is right now, things will change.”

And so as I sit still in deep shock and awe at this wonderful boy who joined us 11 years ago, I’ll share his words today. Mine are swimming in my heart right now and streaming down my face. I’m just so glad he came.

(Moon enters Sagittarius 8:53 a.m. EST)

Being where you are: The moon in Virgo

Today the moon is in Virgo, the sign of mutable earth.

I was thinking about nature interacting with its surroundings – a flower responding to water or to the sun, to conditions from harsh to ideal. My plants perking back up every time I think I’ve finally killed them.

And then I thought about us, and how hard it is to be a changing, living thing interacting with the outside world. What we meet each day can nourish or devastate us, and yet somehow the contract of living things is to face the unpredictable. How very incredible. How brave and astounding.

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When you realize you've been stuck: The Leo moon and the Aquarius sun

Today I’m thinking of the qualities of the Aquarius sun and the Leo moon: Fixed air and fixed fire.

I caught myself holding my breath yesterday. I was walking quickly to my job from several blocks away, where I had found parking. I was worried I’d be late. I decided to jog instead, clumsily, in knee-high boots, trying to avoid patches of ice. I took huge breaths as I did, partly because I’m out of shape, and partly because I made myself. Getting to work on time didn’t matter to me as much as remembering to breathe did. It felt so good to take deep breaths.

As the moon spends its final hours in Leo today, think about where you may have become fixed in air or in fire. Try not to judge yourself – just observe.

Is my breath caught inside me right now? How about my ideas or words?

Is passion stuck inside me? How about anger or love?

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The Super Blue Blood Moon Lunar Eclipse: Entering the space with soul

 
"Light Source Direction", Terry Winters, Metropolitan Museum of Art

"Light Source Direction", Terry Winters, Metropolitan Museum of Art

 

Today’s full moon eclipse in Leo starts to bring the intentions we set during August’s solar eclipse into stark relief.

What can you see now that you couldn’t then?

How have you put yourself out there in trust or performance? What are the fruits? How did you honor or put forth your dignity, your creativity, your essence? What’s still worth striving for? How have you shocked yourself? Which relationships have come into or left your life suddenly or destabilized you somehow? What have they taught you?

What does your heart tell you in this moment?

Today’s lunar eclipse hearkens back not only to August but to past eclipses along the Leo/Aquarius axis. The most recent solar eclipse in Aquarius was January 2009. How have you healed since that time? How have you listened to your own original voice? How have you broken with cultural scripts or norms, either intentionally or unintentionally? Who loved you when you found yourself in those places or took those risks?

When the shadow of the earth falls on the moon today, take the time to reflect and embrace mystery. And take the time to soothe and encourage all that is in you, still unseen.

The heart and the head: The Cancer moon and the Aquarius sun

Today asks us to let the right and left sides of our brain speak to each other. The watery, emotional Cancer moon is safety-seeking, protective, and heart-centered. But the airy, logical Aquarius sun and Venus seek conversation, information, and breakthrough. Aquarius examines and then challenges. It helps us break out of traditional ways of being that either oppress us or simply don’t reflect us. How can we balance such different energies?

Spend some time today taking care of yourself. Tune into your feelings. Listen to your intuition. Allow yourself a creative outlet or a cuddle. It will just feel good.

And also, listen. There are new ideas we need to hear and incorporate. Some of them will be shocking and uncomfortable. How can we feel safe and yet also be open to change? If you feel the fight-or-flight instinct arise in you, can you explore it with someone you trust?

We may all feel somewhat frayed or vulnerable today. If you interact with someone who lashes out or has heavy defenses, try not to internalize it. We’re all in a phase of recovery.

Aim to balance conversation with silence, the external with the internal, the large collective with the safest clan.

(Moon trine Neptune in Pisces 10:18 a.m. EST. Moon opposite Pluto in Capricorn 9:34 p.m. Moon trine Jupiter in Scorpio 11:38 p.m.)

You've worked so hard... now appreciate

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With four planets in Capricorn right now, how can steadiness, patience, and integrity empower you, focus you, calm you, and define you? Which relationships have lasted and why? Are they truly satisfying or life-giving? How do you define adulthood? How do you seek or achieve solitude? Who helps you get things done or quietly does them in the background?

Today’s Leo moon is good for expressing appreciation. Take a moment to appreciate your own persistence in an area that matters to you. Take a moment to see someone who has helped you endure.

It's not that I haven't thought about you....

... I'm just keeping a low profile while Mercury is retrograde in Sagittarius -- the sign of my Mercury. I've been thinking of the centaur quality of Sagittarius -- half human, half horse -- and the necessary integration of mind/body, logic/animal instinct. For the past several months I've been writing consistently but I've paid very little attention to my body. I have a sedentary desk job, and with the extra time I've spent sitting to write when I'm home, well, that's a lot of sitting. So for the past week I've been riding the bike in the early morning instead of writing.

When I have sat down the look at the day's aspects, it's been hard to make enough of a global connection to what's going on to want to actually share something. It's more of a personal experience lately, and so I've been telling my astrological thoughts to Lyndon when I drive him to school or to Langston after we both get home from work. But I feel more careful when it comes to sharing anything more widely right now. I'm weighing my words.

At the same time, I don't want to leave anyone in the lurch. I'm still practicing astrology, and if you need a reading, please do contact me. But if I post less frequently it's because I'm trying to find the right balance between words and movement, speaking and listening, writing and paying attention.

On Mars and Uranus: Fight or get creative

Tomorrow Mars opposes Uranus. The last time this aspect happened was December 2015. Today the Aries moon opposes Mars and conjuncts Uranus, so it’s kind of like a dress rehearsal. Aaaand, it could get intense.

Willpower and change. Fight and shock. Violence and insanity. Self-defense and freedom. With an opposition there’s often polarization. Something happens to us from the outside. You may be facing one energy and identified with the other. Today try to put yourself in both places, though. As Steven Forrest often says, “All aspects are about integration.” For the next few days, how can we find a balance between Mars and Uranus?

A healthy Mars knows what it wants. But with the energies of this week, it’s very easy to get unhinged by what we want. An Aries moon wants what it wants NOW. I found myself very annoyed and petulant yesterday. Enough already with everything. I wanted to call the shots. I have an Aries moon natally, so Mars, the ruler of Aries, is a constant companion: Boundaries, desire, and action. I’m always pushing ahead and when I can’t, I get angry or upset. Uranus is more foreign to me: Detachment, groupthink, information-gathering, outside-the-box ideas. My actions would be improved if I let in more Uranus. I don’t always think before I act.

For the next couple of days, consider the balance for you. What’s harder for you, Mars or Uranus? Could it be time to put a little more action into your ideas or a little more thinking into your actions? Is it time to detach from anger or time to fight for a higher expression of your individuality and freedom?  Is it OK to be different?

If you feel inspired to today, write down some intentions or an action plan. Have a conversation with someone who’s an original thinker. When the moon changes to Taurus later on, do something to invite in silence or peace. Unplug from the news or social media. Go outside and really see what’s around you. And in the next two days, give yourself and others a little space. It will be easy to get triggered. Try to remember that this is just a moment and an opportunity to try a new way.

(Moon opposite Mars 6:12 a.m. EST. Moon conjunct Uranus 7:16 a.m. Moon trine Saturn 11:49 a.m. Moon trine Mercury 1:37 p.m. Moon void of course 1:37 p.m. to 3:38 p.m. Moon enters Taurus 3:38 p.m.)

When Mercury and Saturn have a Talk

Mercury and Saturn joined together early this morning. This could go a number of ways. Two are a sobering of the mind or an insight that helps you understand the heaviness you’ve been laboring under. This happens about once a year but since Mercury will turn retrograde on December 3rd, we’ll experience this aspect three times in two months.

Mercury represents youth, speed, curiosity, and language. Saturn represents age, integrity, duty, and structure. Mercury wants unlimited options and Saturn wants to stick with the plan. But too much Saturn can be deadening. Every once in a while it helps to examine why we’ve been marching along, doing the things that are boring, hard, or grown up. Do we simply have to right now because of difficult circumstances? Are there options we haven’t noticed?

If you’re a Saturnian person, doing the stable or hard thing might feel satisfying. If you’re more Mercurial, you’ll be happier with movement and change. Today take some time to think about what’s more comfortable for you. Imagine whether Saturn or Mercury has had more of an imprint on your life overall and recently. While the moon is still in Pisces, imagine Saturn and Mercury talking to each other or to you. Would it comfort you more right now to be with someone who’s older and wiser or someone who’s clever and fun?

If you haven’t had enough stability or enough change, set goals to bring yourself into a balance that aligns with your values. Write yourself an inspirational note, a poem, or even a love letter. And if someone has stuck by you or helped you through something difficult, reach out to let them know you see them and you’re grateful.

(Mercury conjunct Saturn 1:58 a.m. EST. Moon trine Venus 4:41 a.m. Moon square Saturn 6:55 a.m. Moon square Mercury 7:08 a.m. Moon void of course 7:08 to 11:30 a.m. Moon enters Aries 11:30 a.m.)

Reframing the Not Knowing: Pisces moon square sun

Today the moon is in Pisces, the sign of compassion, God, oneness, inspiration, spaciousness, flowing. But Pisces is also the sign of release. In Pisces we lose our egos in a process so uncomfortable we want to give up or escape. Being invisible or formless can be devastating. Letting go sucks.

So how can we work with today’s symbols? Notice any tension you feel. Today the sun, the sign of self and ego, squares the moon, the sign of mystery, change, memories and emotions. We can’t separate who we are from the childhood and families we’ve had, the relationships and experiences that have touched us deeply.  So at least for today, stop comparing. Release harsh self-judgment. And try to reframe where you are now in the light of where you’ve been and what you’ve learned from people who were loving and wise. Which childhood messages do you need to remember? Which do you need to release? What really matters to you? How can dream, prayer, imagination, or love empower or encourage you right now? How can your own image inspire you?

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Honoring the Bittersweet Unspoken: The Scorpio Balsamic Moon

Today is the last day of the balsamic or waning crescent moon cycle before tomorrow’s new moon in Scorpio.

We’re also in the pre-shadow period of Mercury Retrograde. I’m feeling this one more than I usually do, maybe because Mercury is in the same sign as my natal Mercury, Sagittarius. I’m getting triggered into more arguments. I’m having to redo things at work. Somebody asked me how I was the other day, and I just opened my mouth and closed it again. I shook my head and raised my eyebrows. I let out a deep sigh and shrugged. I knew if I actually spoke I would cry. We just looked at each other for an extended moment, slowly nodding in unison. My coworker said he understood and was sorry to hear that. He lowered his head compassionately, and then awkwardly hurried away. Maybe he was able to hear and understand the unspoken, or maybe he chalked it up to a bad moment -- the copier jamming again or coffee spilled on my lap. What I would have said, if it were the time and place and I could find my voice, was, “Why am I here? What does this all mean? How do I keep trudging along?”

This morning Mercury makes an energizing aspect with Mars. It’s a chance to try to face and come to some peace with everything we’ve been taking in. Take some time to reflect. What’s gotten you angry lately? What’s unsettled you? Has anything or anybody helped you when you felt depleted or despondent? Is there anything you really want to say right now? To whom?

Be gentle with yourself and others as you sort through the bittersweet unspoken. Consider what you can release to a higher power and what you might need to actually, bravely say out loud. If you’d like to, perform a ritual to mark an ending, a letting go, or a poignant goodbye. But do spend some time with your feelings before tomorrow’s new moon. And above all, hang in there.

(Mercury sextile Mars 9:24 a.m. EST. Moon sextile Pluto 1:15 p.m.)

Venus and Jupiter conjunction in Scorpio: Looking back and then forward

It’s early morning on the east coast, and as I begin to type Venus and Jupiter are about to rise in a conjunction. This happens about once a year. The last conjunction was in Virgo in August 2016, and the next one will be in Sagittarius in January 2019.

I almost stayed in bed instead of writing today. I have to finish on a presentation when I get to work, and I imagine it will take me many hours of concentration in front of a computer screen to do. Why don’t I just rest my eyes for now and take it easy, I thought.

But then I wanted to mark the moment and the opportunity. So much has happened since August 2016.

Virgo symbolizes work, service, craft, improvement. It’s associated with health and mentoring. When Venus and Jupiter made a conjunction last year, Mercury joined them and Chiron opposed them.

Which relationships have you really invested yourself in this year? Which relationships or experiences humbled you? Which relationships reflected your own human greatness back to you? What risks did you take in connection, self-improvement or expression? How did you face or release your wounds or help others face or release theirs? Were there loved ones you had to release before you felt ready to? Did you ask for more freedom when you needed to? How did you refine your writing, your mindset or your voice? Who were your mentors? How did you step up to be useful? How did you become better? How did you adjust? When did you find peace? When did you find wisdom or joy?

Under today’s Virgo moon, try to honor your forward movement since last August. Appreciate the people who helped you in the last year. And make space for depth, transformation and honesty as you usher in today’s Venus/Jupiter conjunction in Scorpio.

Last year we learned, strove and were humbled. In the next year, we'll be challenged to face the vast stores of emotion and energy within all of us. How can we wisely befriend our own power? How will we be renewed?

(Virgo Moon sextile sun 1:55 a.m. EST. Venus conjunct Jupiter 3:15 a.m. Moon square Saturn 10:45 a.m. Moon void of course 10:45 a.m. to 6:26 p.m. Mercury square Neptune 5:47 p.m. Moon enters Libra 6:26 p.m.)

Mercury in Sagittarius: It's time to remember to dream

Today Mercury enters Sagittarius, where it will stay until January 11, 2018. That’s an especially long time for fast-moving Mercury to stay in a sign. Just to make sure we REALLY get the Sagittarian message, Mercury will be retrograde December 3rd-December 22nd. How can this help us?

Mercury in Scorpio brought some extremely uncomfortable topics to our attention: Death. Power. Secrets. Shame. Corruption. We needed to see these things and name them so they would no longer have power over us. We needed catharsis, and in facing something honestly and bravely we learned more about our own resilience, our own ability to renew ourselves and bring healing energy to others. But Scorpio energy can get so heavy and dark it’s hard to see the light. Some of us have been drowning.

The sun and Jupiter are still in Scorpio: What makes us uncomfortable is not going away. Our own inner power is still growing and is yet to be fully revealed. But Mercury in Sagittarius now symbolizes a mindset of meaning and expansion. For the next two months our challenge is to see patterns and integrate wisdom into our push beyond the familiar. Can we find opportunities for joy, success, and growth even while understanding the darker sides of reality?

Sagittarian energy exaggerates. It can be grandiose or overbearing. Sagittarian aim sometimes misses the mark. But it searches for the truth. It reaches and tries. And there’s something beautifully heroic about reaching and trying.

In these last hours of Mercury in Scorpio, acknowledge your feelings. Face some of your grief, shame, or darkness. But start to be able to frame it and to believe you can move through it. Sagittarius reminds us of our freedom. Start to see how embracing freedom can be a great gift to you and the people you love. And start to infuse your thoughts and your words with understanding, hope, and faith.

(Moon in Gemini. Mercury enters Sagittarius 3:18 p.m. EST.)

The Aries Moon Conjunct Uranus: Leaving room for a surprise

I’ve been hiding in a mysterious, protective shell for the past week. I haven’t had much to say. Today I’m in California to start another 4-day astrology class and I’m feeling especially shy. I wish I could just take the class via the web, sitting in my hotel room instead. And I actually like the people who’ll be there. There was a waiting list for this class and I’m lucky to have gotten in. Why the hesitation? What’s going on with me?

A Scorpio sun and an Aries moon give two different messages. Scorpio is a fixed sign but Aries is a cardinal sign, marking a beginning. We have to act or initiate. This is not a wait-and-see energy. This is a face-your-fear time. But in the last weeks our intuition has been growing. We’ve probably noticed things that have disturbed us. Jupiter and Mercury are also in Scorpio. We might be steeped in psychology and overwhelmed by all that’s creepy and dangerous in the world around us. There’s no denying violence, power plays and treachery if we’ve had our eyes open.

And so why would we leave our safe havens?

In the symbolism of Aries, to be a warrior or a child. Maybe you’ll find yourself in a position to help someone today. Or maybe there’s an innocence you can reclaim by forging ahead. Pay attention to your intuition, but don’t let it overpower you in negativity. Leave room for a surprise that could heal and change you. You don’t have to know how everything will turn out. Just start.

(Aries moon square Pluto 8:18 a.m. EDT. Moon opposite Venus 8:30 p.m. Moon trine Saturn 9:08 p.m. Moon conjunct Uranus 11:02 p.m.)

Adulting on your own terms: The Capricorn moon

Under yesterday’s Capricorn moon I found myself waiting. Waiting at a green light for a fire truck to cross the intersection. Waiting for the other members of a meeting to join me. I’m often the late one, the harried one. There were still hints of that as a coworker had to let me into a room with her key card. But there was also waiting and compromise. A fire truck’s emergency is more important than a quick commute home. The next green light would get me through the intersection.
Patience.

A Capricorn moon is always a chance to reevaluate our approach to patience, maturity, and authority. When the other members of the meeting finally arrived I made an uncharacteristic joke: “Thank you for joining me.” They had called the meeting and were senior, so they looked confused. They didn’t laugh. But I’m 40 now, and something about saying that joke out loud made me proud. Despite the differences in rank and gender, I was an adult in the presence of adults. I was acknowledging my own authority.

As the Capricorn moon joins Pluto today, what do you see about your own authority? Which accomplishments mean most to you? Which traditional signs of status are you willing to release because they don’t fit your real values? What's your greatest legacy?

The sun will join Jupiter this afternoon, a yearly event. Please take the opportunity to reflect on risks taken in the last year. Feel them. Let them warm you. And release any shame about where you are right now. Today a new cycle begins. Feed it with hope and gratitude.

And remember that so many great things take time. 
(Moon square Venus 2:05 a.m. EDT. Moon conjunct Pluto 6:49 a.m. Sun in Scorpio conjunct Jupiter 2:09 p.m.)

The Sun in Scorpio: Meditating on Ice

Yesterday the sun entered Scorpio, a fixed water sign.

Scorpio carries so much more meaning and symbolism, but for the last two days I’ve simply meditated on fixed water: Ice.

It’s pretty easy to see how developing more of an icy persona could be negative. I might hold too much in. I might shut people out. I might refuse to change direction. But how can it be positive? How can the properties of ice help me become more vital, powerful and complete over the next month? How do I need to strengthen or stabilize? When is it appropriate to be impenetrable? How can I be more transparent?

The ice on a lake protects the water and life underneath from the cold. But a layer of ice that’s too heavy or dark can block the sun and prevent photosynthesis: Ice can cut off oxygen from the life underneath.

The last of the fixed signs, Scorpio has an unmatched staying potential. Under the final hours of today’s Sagittarius moon, make sure that what you elect to stay with has true meaning and hope for you. If there’s a way you’re boxed in right now and have no actual choice about something, try to recognize the inherent power you do have in this temporary holding pattern. 

This strong, life-giving potential is actually variable if and when we allow it to be, once we feel safe enough. Even ice can be a block or a snowflake.

(Sagittarius moon conjunct Saturn 7:54 a.m. EDT. Mercury trine Neptune 11:55 a.m. Moon trine Uranus 12:44 p.m. Moon void of course 12:44 p.m. to 8:12 p.m. Moon enters Capricorn 8:12 p.m. Moon square Mars 11:13 p.m.)

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